Episode 1!

[hayley]

Hey confeshy fesh! Welcome to the lovely DR of Hayley! This is where you will hear all of the blabberings of meeeeeeeee. And tonight will feature a slightly drunk Hayley so BEAR WITH ME.

Anyway, the game is starting! Omg, 27 people are EXHAUSTING to try and talk to. I am trying my best but it's so awful trying to keep all this information. I still haven't talked to quite a few people and I almost don't want to talk to them because that's MORE people that I still need to remember!

Anyway, I'm gonna start by just listing the people I HAVENT talked to yet, just so I can make a mental note to talk to them somedayyyyy:

-Ash
-Christine
-Chreeees-toe-FURRRRRR
-Danielle
-Drew
-Keith
-Rachelle
-Ryan
-Sofia

Ugh, that's a lot, no? There are a few people that I just need to get up the energy to message because I've seen them online but uggggggh I'm a lazy Aussie gurl atm.

The next group of people are people that... well, our convos just kind of DIED right away so I really don't have an opinion of them because they can't hold a conversation! And if you know ANYTHING about me you'll know that it puts me on your hitlist if you can't socialize!

-Brian
-Candice
-Ika
-Luisa (although she had to go to bed so maybe that'll be different)


The last group are people I actually really liked talking with! I'll go down the list with them.

Boog- I love Boog! I think she's really sweet and we have a lot of the same interests. I also love that there's another Aussie gurl in the house with me!

Brittany- I really like her and like that she puts in the effort We had a lovely conversation about where we live and our suckiness in challenges.

Casey- Casey is a sweetheart. I don't know if he is great socially but at least he's trying with me! I also think he might be strong in challenges so it'd be good to get on his good side!

Heather- Heather is wonderful to talk to. We had a good conversation about our jobs and she told me she's starting Law School soon. Oh my God on that! Ugh, I kind of got tipsy and the conversation died... but I really like her.

Heaven- Oh Heaven. I'm wary of her challenge comping her way through the game again. We hadn't spoken face to face since she evicted me in RnF6. And I was coming in here and planning to totally HATE her and then I had a convo with her and fell back in love with her. I love Heaven and she is my person <3. But my game trust still is NOT there with her yet.

Matt- Matt was funny! Our convo was kinda short but I liked him. He told me about delivering a pizza to a naked customer which is CRAZY. Omg some people are so gross! Like with Heather I think it was my fault the convo died but I like her.

Memphis- I like Memphis in a game sense.... as a conversationalist he still does that thing that I remember from my season where he parrots everything I say back to him which can grate. BUT I want to work with him this time so I approached him for an alliance! We're gonna work together and I hope we can get far.

Mike- Mike is also someone that I'm working with in this game. I know Mike outside of this game and I have a great friendship with him so I plan on being loyal to him along with Memphis. And I just think he's cute and sweet <3.

Neda- Neda is someone I really gelled with! She was the first person I talked to in this game and I liked her socialness. She strikes me as someone who could get kinda bitchy though so I don't wanna get on her bad side.

Nick- I LOVE Nick. I loved him in my season and I love that we can kind of snark with each other. We had a pretty good conversation about the game. Like Casey... I think he has trouble talking about things outside the game but he puts in the effort which i like.

Nicole- I really like Nicole! She's really sweet and nice to talk to. She kind of reminds me of myself except not as much as a hawt mess. Ugh, am I the poor man's Nicole? Probz. BUT OH WELL I HAVE A CERTAIN CHARM. 

Shilpa- I liked her okay. She didn't leave the BIGGEST impression on me but we had a good convo about Survivor and she seems sweet.

Zach- Zach was by far the person I had the best convo with so far. I'd like to work with him and might approach him about it. We just clicked and I thought he was really cute and sweet!

Anyway, that's it! It's kind of weird... I remember in my season I kind of gravitated more toward working with the girls but in this season I've clicked more with the guys! I guess a lot of the girls just intimidate me a little.

I also did the HoH challenge! I hope I can win but we'll just see. I don't think it will be the end of the world if I don't win but then again this is a NON Speed NON Puzzle challenge so I have a chance!

That's it for now. Byeeeeee!

[hayley]

LOL and here's a long-ish video confesh of me complaining cause things aren't going my way. I'm still gonna try and hang in there but things are looking AWFUL.

youtu.be/omCd589YHmA

[hayley]

WELL. eviction is looming and, ugh, it's gonna be my day of reckoning for sure!

First the Veto results came out, and remember how I was saying I was really happy with how I did on the challenge? Yeah... no, I changed my mind. I ended up getting like 5th or 6th place OH MY GOD I HATE COMPS. And the Winner who like did that comp in 2 minutes is Boog! OMG, howwwww did she finish a challenge in 2 minutes? I have no idea but hats off to her. I'd be really upset if I didn't love Boog and think she's amazing.

ANYWAY, Boog took her self up and I kind of swallowed my pride and went to Brian and told him I wouldn't target him so he should put someone up. And he was like "yah yah whatever Hayley" pretty much. I also tried talking to Heather about nominations but as soon as I brought it up the convo like STOPPED. Heather later told me she didn't see the IM which I sort of believe but it still made me feel like absolute crap! That plus Brian and Neda telling me the whole house wanted me gone just made me feel likea  total goner.

Soooo Brian nominated Danielle! ANd this ended up being a blessing in disguise for me. While I definitely think I would have gone against Boog, Danielle doesn't talk to people a lot! So I started making my rounds and just feelin' people out!

The first two I went to were Memphis and Mike. These two are the two I have alliances with and want to go to the end with and both said they had my back.

I then went to people I have had really good connections with! I approached Boog first and then Brittany and BOTH said they would keep me! I also tried Heather again and she told me she would vote to save me if the votes are there.

Soooo unless people are totally lying to me and changing their votes, I think I might be saaaaved! I've forgotten how this game and series takes you from the lowest of lows to the highest of highs each round. I'm so stoked to have a second chance at this game and I'm gonna try and work it with all my might. And if I end up going... well at least I know I didn't sit back and let people walk over me.

Also, just some side notes on people I've finally had the chance to meet!:

Christine: We've met like ONCE this game. I think she's not a nightowl and I am so it's hard to line up our schedules but she's pretty nice and sweet. I've connected to other people in my house a lot more though.

Ash: We talked but the convo like TOTALLY fizzled out. WHATEVER. I think I know who he is irl though and I like that person anyway.

Luisa: I finally got to talk to her more and really like her! She's funny and I feel bad that she's up!

Christopher: I LOVE Christopher. We share a love over BBUK and have gabbed a lot about that.

Rachelle: Rachelle is amazing! I love her, she seems so sweet and nice to me. She's IMed me the past few days and has been cheering me on so it's nice to have that kind of support.

Drew: Okay, first off Drew is really fun to talk to! We talked about Harry Potter and Tarot cards which sounds really random but I loved it. However... something kept bugging me because his screen name seemed REALLY familiar but I couldn't quite remember where I knew him from. And FINALLY I figured it out. I actually played with Drew in my first game ever!.... which was TEN YEARS AGO. Omg first off that makes me embarassed that I randomly remembered a screen name from ten years ago and secondly that makes me embarassed that I have been playing orgs for this long!!! AND I STILL SUCK. LOL, I will never tell Drew that I remember him because it will totally creep him out. It creeps ME out!

Anyway, from the other houses Keith and Luisa are up along with Casey and Christopher.  Although I realy like Luisa and haven't talked to Keith that much I kind of hope that Keith stays JUST cause he's more polarizing. Our of Casey and Christopher, I'm gonna be sad with whoever leaves cause I love them both!

OK I'm kinda late for work but I think I'm gonna be able to make it back and write my goodbyes to other people. Ugh, get it together Hayley!