Ryan's Room V2

[Ryan Ginns]

The game is afoot and I'm struggling socially already man! I've been getting hit with night shifts and while the tips are out of this world it's been at the expense of talking to players. Fun times ahead for Ryza in the Big Brother house! If this is going to be my house for a bit then I might be okay lmfao. I have Heaven with me and she's my rock. If I didn't have Heaven I could be in all kinds of trouble. Shout out to my lady Heaven! Her being in my house and having a relationship with Sofia is aces. Sofia won HOH and when we talked she mentioned working together right away. I know this is because Heaven wants a grouping of all of us. It's not an official deal yet but it's been discussed. I told Sofia I wanted to do it because come on dude.. look at us lmfao. If we worked together we could be a strong group! I didn't have any strong competitors to help me against the house in S8 but this time I could have Heaven and Sofia? Right on!

I have spoken to everybody in my house except Ash and Luisa. I don't remember if I spoke to Keith lmfao. If I did it wasn't something to write home about. I'm not going to talk to Luisa unless she wants to because we didn't have a good thing before and while I wasn't personal with her she was on a hell hunt to make sure I'd lose the game if I was in the F2. She's a brat. Maybe she's changed.. but a tiger doesn't change it's stripes (in a short amount of time no less). Ash isn't on when I am. I don't know anything about him lmfao but he got picked to be here for some reason so he's got to have something in his backpack to compete against the other players with. Matt is the man. He is the same dude I remember from before. We're chill and we kickback and talk now and again. Nothing much to say with him except he could be an ally for me. I tried to reach out to Drew and he told me he was busy and couldn't talk. I told him I'd give him a shout next time. Heaven and Sofia are the ones I want to work with in the house. I like them the most out of everyone in it.

A lot of the players that I have some flow with are in other houses. I'm digging Boog hard! Boog and I have strong chemistry when we talk imho. I gave her a slogan, "taking squats, stealing hearts" and she loved it lmfao. It all came from her showing some thigh in her avatar. That minx! Heather and I resumed our conversations and she's the same girl I remember. We've been bonding over our similar job which is serving in an italian restaurant. I've been trying to lay down my lady killer moves.. trying to establish some flirtmances. Boog, Heather, Ika, Brittany and Sofia have been my targets lmfao! Ika is bae. We can roleplay whenever she wants! Neda and I talked too yesterday for the first time and she's a chill chick. She's kind of a weirdo! I've been attempting to keep conversations going as long as I can when I'm on. I am by no means the most active player online but when I do go on I try to spend a couple hours in conversations to get to know people and make myself memorable. I now realize the players I've primarily spoken to have been all girls. What can I say!?

Not going to lie but it's hard remembering everyone I've spoken to. I've chatted with Memphis, Shilpa, Danielle, Zach and Nick too. I had good chats with Memphis and Zach. Zach's someone I could bromance it up with. Maybe my Leo? My new m8? He's got a bag of allies in accordance to the grapevine but we get along and he's been talking game with me already when others haven't. I forgot about Rachelle but she messaged me on the board and said she only comes on in the evenings and it's why she's missing me in the day. I told her we may be opposites on the AOL spectrum but opposites attract! Smooth Ryan.. smooth! (Keep telling yourself that!)

The nominees are Keith and Luisa. I spent time in my chat yesterday with Sofia trying to set Luisa up for a nomination. The good news is Luisa didn't talk to Sofia and it already looked like a lock that she was going up. Not a lot of effort needed to be made to try and get her on the block! I told Sofia to be ready for any and all backlash because Luisa likes to take a nomination personally even when it makes sense lmfao. Keith didn't do HOH and he's a safe nomination. We had a brief chat but he isn't high on my list. If he left I wouldn't cry myself to sleep. On the other hand if he leaves without giving me Keith points I might cry.  If nominations stay I will want to vote Luisa out for personal reasons but if Keith isn't going to play the game then I want to promote integrity and get him out. That way everyone left is someone who is playing to play and not playing to troll.

[Ryan Ginns]

Brian: hey, good to see you on
Ryan: likewise man!
Ryan: keep missing you!
Ryan: i'm usually gone by now because of work to be fair lmfao
Brian: was starting to think maybe something happened to you
Ryan: yeah i could say the same thing!
Ryan: my reaction was how did this guy win hoh when he's not around!
Brian: and that's fair

I forgot he was Jessica for a second..

[Shir]

Ryza working it

[Ryan Ginns]

I think your boy's in trouble! I could be calling it early but things aren't looking too bright for Ryza! Everyone in my house is aces too which is the suckage. Brian and I have our history as Jessica and Ryan. I didn't like the chick in my season but he's not half bad (despite the passive aggressive things he says). Brittany is my cuddlemance and I like her company. We are dubbed "the Heartbreakers" because we're breaking hearts and all that cute snazz. Candice and her rainbow fro keep me lively allow me a spring in my step. Nick is a cool dude and I get on with him when we talk. We relate and it's easy for us to chat. Shilpa is a flirt machine and we have a nice thing. Everyone is chill and I get along with them but if you crack at the surface.. the truth starts to show.

Brian came to me thinking I was against him. How did he get that idea lmfao? He said he thought it had to do with Danni leaving. Danni and I didn't talk except twice when she was here. Her head wasn't in the game man! Why would I be mad about her going? Heaven told me that Candice wants me and her gone at the earliest convenience. It's hard hearing that because I like Candice but she's not going to be someone in my corner. Nick's rad but he's a big player. I would not be opposed to working some type of thing with him but he isn't someone that can be at the end lmfao. It's hard because Heaven and him have this thing. A healthy rivalry I guess you could say! Nick will assume I side with Heaven and that won't help my case with Nick. Shilpa is the same thing. I like Shilpa but she's a threat and I think she will want me and Heaven gone soon. Man.. this is rough!

Drew winning isn't a good situation for me. The three times I've messaged Drew he's had an excuse to cut the conversation and not talk to me. These were when we were in House #2 together! First time.. he was working on a project. I didn't want to bother the man and he said we'd talk later. The next time.. he was driving and couldn't talk. I asked him to HMU when he could. I got nothing lmfao! Third time.. he's with family and can't talk. I can't catch a break with this guy! I have been trying to talk and meet the dude but every opportunity I take I get a wall up in front of me that doesn't let me. If he nominates me I'm going to feel sour if he bases it on communication because I've tried tons of times lmfao.

With all this pent up frustration we got to talk last night for the first time.. granted he was mobile. I laid it on the line. I told him if I won I would have nominated Hayley because she and I hadn't talked yet and my other would have been a personal nomination on who I didn't feel close to. I told him to do the same if he was having trouble. I let the guy know if I win a challenge he's good with me.. he scratches my back, I'll scratch his. I've used this speech before in my original season lmfao and it did me no good. I pray Drew can see he can use me for the time being and not try and get me out. I could be an asset to his game! Drew told me he didn't want to make a decision until after the button results.

Mike's in our house with the press of a button and I don't know if that helps my case or makes it worse lmfao. It appears Drew's out today and it's going to be hard to reach and talk to him again. I think I'm fighting a losing battle because I didn't get confirmations that I was safe and it's hard getting into contact with the dude. If I get up you know I'm going to do what I can to win.. for me.. my mances.. for America (and Australia) (and Canada)!

[Ryan Ginns]

What a tool box!

I'll cut the dude some slack because he put me up outright but his speech peeves me. No matter how much you try and get into contact with this fellow he doesn't respond. I messaged him twice today and he never replied. He had it in his head that he was nominating me and didn't care to let me know or let me perform a last minute plea. That's how I see it at least. It's all levels of frustrating but that's okay. No problem sir! He's right about one thing! This is All Stars. He came to play but I hope he's ready for a solid opponent because if I stay I'm going to make sure he goes out sooner rather than later. He can draw first blood but I'm going to get the kill.

Nick being up beside me is another blow. I like Nick and he's someone I could have had a working relationship with! He was my choice for a bromance lmfao! I shot him an offline and told him if there's a way we can both survive the week, I want to make it happen. If he or I can win POV and take ourselves down we can help get votes to save the other and take out who the replacement is. I didn't get to the nitty gritty but left the door open for discussion.

If I stay up on the block the good news is I've been working at my relationship with Brian and we've been talking a lot. I got Brittyan going for me. That's only two people lmfao. I talk to everyone else but I wouldn't count on them to bat for me! Not good! I wish I could talk to Hayley but the chick isn't around a lot from what I hear. I shot her an offline last night and she responded after I was gone. She might get on late and that's why I don't see her. I need to get something going with her so I can have her vote. Maybe Brittany can help her boy out and get me some votes if she's got connections I don't know about. I haven't talked to Mike and would like to do that too. I can play the role of a Sofia hater and see if he likes that lmfao?

[Ryan Ginns]

Ryan: how're things?
Brittany: Ugh still the same. Hayley is my only vote. Brian won't vote for me unless he knows I have the votes to stay and only if it would help him in this game
Brittany: He's scared to go against the house and Mike is torn on who to vote for. I still don't think I'll get Candice and Shilpa's vote
Ryan: so you need mike and brian?
Ryan: i'll vote for you if we can get the votes. you know i want you to stay babe, but if you're going i can't look worse for wear since i already have a large target on my back..
Ryan: i'd campaign to mike but we don't have a talking relationship lmfao
Ryan: people know heaven and i are good friends and mike and heaven aren't good friends
Ryan: it might make it worse for you if i say anything
Brittany: I don't think I'll get the votes from them. I've campaigned to both of them and made very valid points but they're scared to go against the house. But I appreciate it so much that you kept and open mind and I totally understand the position you're in. I just don't understand Brian's because his reasons make no sense lol he's a sitting duck anyways. But as of right now since the deadline is so close it looks like I'll just get Hayley's
Ryan: i feel like shit, this sucks dude
Brittany: I'm just more upset of why Drew is ignoring my messages and not telling me why I'm up on the block and why I'm the target
Ryan: i'm closer to you than nick, but if i keep you and you go, he has a reason to come after me too
Ryan: drew did the same thing to me too.. he didn't start talking to me again until after i won the pov lmfao
Brittany: That's ridiculous. I thought Drew was a better player than that lol. But no worries Ryan! I'm still gonna cheer for you in prejury! And I hope we play again in another season in the future! You were lots of fun chatting with while me being here.

I don't want to evict her but I think I have to.

[Ryan Ginns]

Not a whole heck of a lot has been going on for your boy Ryza! Last week I was sent away to the Button Bungalow and I got little to no action. I couldn't play in anything and I couldn't vote.. which left me kind of useless lmfao! Who wants to talk to the guy who can't do anything! Not me! I did find a weird Britney image that I wasn't supposed to find? I don't know what it is but I think it was similar to what Heaven had in her season. Was it the beginning of a search for a secret prize!? I didn't tell anyone about this because I didn't want to ramp up paranoia. I didn't want people to think that the Button Bungalow was more than it was too! It was only me having a vacation and doing nothing.. that's all!

Coming back into the game was a snap back to reality! I wanted HOH bad because I wanted to reintegrate myself back into the house and what better way than with some power? It didn't work out that way and Mike ended up beating me. Dude what is with me falling short or getting shafted this season!? Hayley takes my HOH, Mike beats me out by a few seconds, I get told the Britney image doesn't work.. Ryza isn't the lucky bro he was before! I need that to change! I started talking to my usuals.. you know the players that I have a good feels with. Zach, Heaven, Rachelle, Sofia, Heather and others. Heaven was telling me that Mike had us ripe for a backdoor. That's nice to know. Mike hasn't made any effort with me but I haven't with him either so no judgement! He has beef with Heaven and I think that transitions to me since everyone knows we're a package deal..

Zach and I talked about duos coming up. I think this is going to happen next round.. there's no way it doesn't! I also think we'll have the comeback twist from my season. I was preparing myself for the worst if Mike stayed HOH and  if Heaven or I got backdoored, we still had a good shot coming back? It was hard to think about but those thoughts quickly left when I found out Neda was throwing to help Sofia out. All of it played to perfection which is aces! Sofia remains HOH and guess who your POV winner? This guy!  What! Finally I have another win under my belt and some power. My alliance of Rachelle, Sofia, Zach, Heaven and Nick already has a plan and the plan is to POV Neda for her troubles and backdoor someone. The last I heard it was going to be Christine but there is a chance of Shilpa going up in her place.

I like Shilpa but I keep hearing about this chick running her mouth! She's always targeting or talking bad about one of the members of my alliance and I think we've all been a target of hers at some point now lmfao. If Shilpa goes up and out that's okay with me! When I get on later I'm expecting to get a lot of begging to not use the POV or I may not! I am going to be using the POV though because I'm a team player! I think the move to get out Christine or Shilpa benefits my game as well as my alliances. The tough thing about this is  I think I enjoy Hayley more than I do Neda so having to POV Neda and not Hayley will be hard but I can do it. I hope Hayley can stay and if we talk I'm going to tell her she has my vote to survive!

I want HOH next week so I can jump in and get into the nominations spirit. I've got a couple targets that include Candice, Mike, Ash, Christine, Keith and Boog! Candice and Boog (like Shilpa) like to throw my name out there I hear. I like Boog more than Candice so it might be hard to put Boog up. I thought she and I were cool so hearing she wants me up and out is a downer! Christine and Ash are a pair that have proven to want me and my allies out! They aren't afraid to come after the threats and that's dangerous for me since I classify as one. Heaven thinks Ash is trying to change his ways and wants to work with us and as much as I respect Heaven's trusting nature I don't think I buy into his pitch. I think that dude is trying save his balls one round at a time.

[Ryan Ginns]

I'm feeling bad about the Shilpa backdoor! Lmfao man oh man! Your boy's got some emotions. Idk.. I've liked Shilpa but I get she's a gameplayer and she's not going to be someone who's going to watch my back. I've been talking to her and she's opening up about things.. nothing I didn't already know but still opening up. The hardest part was when she asked me if she had anything to worry about. I didn't want to lie to the chick because I know she's good with Heather and Heather is someone I've had a working relationship with. I told her a hint of the truth! I said if what I heard about her relationship with Sofia hasn't changed since after their last game then she should be worried.

Christine also has been talking to me and trying to feel me out. Christine knows Heaven and I are close and a lot of her points touched on her saying she's not coming after Heaven anymore. It bothers me that Heaven and I are getting paired together lmfao. I get it but it sucks when you realize everyone groups you together. I don't feel like I'm playing my own game but I am trying to! I feel like the duo twist is already in effect lmfao! Is it terrible to say that I would vote out Heaven if the time was right and the opportunity presented itself? It'd be at the end of the game because I know she has my back.. but Ryza's here to win! I don't want to come close or lose in a finale situation against someone as indescribable as Heaven.

The alliance I mentioned earlier has a name and it's the Sinister Six. I like the name lmfao. We were all chatting and talking about all the conversations we were having with people. Shilpa is trying to protect herself because I think she knows she's in trouble. Nobody's told her she's going up so to me it has to be a factor of guilt? I mentioned the Sofia thing before but chalked it up to their past game and Shilpa said she and Sofia "made up". Shilpa is going around to all of us and bringing up the drama that happened at her last vote with her campaigning to keep Drew. She knows people were annoyed by her because Candice told her they all were. Candice throwing people under the bus lmfao who's surprised? Not me! I liked Candice but she's one of the people that seems to throw me, Sofia and Heaven out to whoever HOH is every week? I would like to win HOH and put her and her rainbow fro on the block. The fro can stay, she can go!

Sofia was going off in the alliance chat saying she doesn't care what Shilpa says to her. She's putting her up no matter what. Shilpa is in butt kiss mode too lmfao. She's telling me she's not after me or Sofia which I think is a lie. Again I like the chick and I'm not going to be a dick to her but everything everyone else has said doesn't match that story. I get her wanting to keep Drew but I heard one of her campaign points to keep Drew was so he could come after me, Sofia and Heaven. Every story I hear only reinforces she is not someone I could rely on. I'm treating the situation lightly because I know Heather is close to her and Heather is an outlet of information I want to use outside my alliance if I can..

[Ryan Ginns]

Things were low key for me this round lmfao and that's not me complaining! If Haytine won then I would have been in a world of mayhem. Christine made it known that she is no ally of mine, Heaven or Sofia and wants us gone as soon as possible! While I like Hayley and know she is a friend of Heaven's.. she doesn't offer a lot to my game. I know if Haytine won over Zeaven then Brian and I would have gotten nominated. I could see Hayley being the one to nominate us for the reason that Brian nominated her when he was HOH. No biggie lmfao I get it! I wouldn't have been mad! But the dude is my partner and I'm stuck to him.. so any enemy of his is an enemy of mine right now.. and that's the frame of mind Zeaven had for their nominations and I think they made a smart choice.

Heaven's a close friend and I know she can be blinded by loyalty. She did not want to put up Hayley and she had to be talked into putting up Rachelle by me and Zach. I understand her not wanting to put up Hayley but she knew Christine was bad for her game, Zach's game, my game, Sofia's game. Almost our whole alliance lmfao! Christine needed to go up.. Hayley or not. Heaven got Zach to agree to put Haytine up but then we had to get her to agree to put up Rash. Ash isn't good for our game either. It's been said that Ash doesn't talk to the people he doesn't like. I have been on a few times when he's been on and he's never hit me up. He's spoken to Heaven and Sofia about "working together" but he's never come to me about it. Whether he was honest or not.. I wasn't going to be priority to him in that idea.

It was easy to understand Ash could be bad for our game because he and Christine had the same pitches to the girls and Christine proved she couldn't be trusted. That left Ash's honesty in limbo! If the dude was honest.. all our bad! But everything he's done has hurt what he tells us now. Rachelle was upset about going up and I spoke to her and shared that I wasn't happy with it either. I didn't tell her my true feelings except that I was upset she was going up. Which is the truth.. well a half truth.  I think her going up is a great way to separate her from us! It distances her from our group! I want people to keep telling her things so we hear about them. Yeah it's crap she has to be the pawn but it's all caused by the situation we're in. When you get dealt a bad hand.. you don't fold.. you find the best way to play it.

Zeaven winning secures our plan and it should be Ash and Christine getting evicted. Ash's plea at the ceremony left me baffled. Is the dude playing for Christine? This isn't the first time people have mentioned him trying to throw competitions or wanting to quit for Christine. By the sound of it he wants himself and Rachelle to be evicted. If Rachelle goes this is going to be a huge hit to not only my game but the Cool Kid Club and Sinister Six. Rachelle's a core member and she's a crucial piece to our puzzle. If Rachelle goes I'm going to need to put even more time into my relationship with Heather. Heather is my back-up because like Rachelle, I know she has some ties in the game and has an incredible social presence. She can supply information when needed..

The best outcome for my main alliances next week is Bryan winning HOH. We have to win this man! If we don't, one of us is going and I don't see anything other than that. If me, Heaven or Sofia end up on the block people aren't going to want to miss the chance to take one of us out! I almost hope that if one of us is targeted before that I go up so I can fight for POV and save myself. I don't want to get ahead of myself and think about the worst outcome but I need to prepare myself for everything!

[Ryan Ginns]

I have a lot to update on with your boy Ryza! I will try and get something up before the deadline but I'm on a campaigning spree to keep my ass alive for the time being! I've got a armful of vote confirmations to keep me safe, a babe named Heather helping me out, an "anti-trio" trying to get me out, a bitter Mike who can't let go of old game grudges with other people and a Neda who I don't appreciate for her humor anymore lmfao. To be continued!

[Ryan Ginns]

Lets rewind this bad boy! Before HOH results I was having a conversation with Heather where we were confirming that we'd be safe with the other. When she won I told her about my falling out with Boog. Boog and I had great chats at the start but fell through once I learned she was trying to target me. I wasn't going to keep buddying up to the chick if she was wanting me out. I reminded Heather that I had done her a favor when I spoke nothing but good things of her to Heaven to keep her safe even with Boog as her partner. I wanted Heather to put in the same effort! It didn't do anything lmfao and your boy Ryza still went up! Heather came to me and told me that she couldn't control Boog's nominations but she was going to do what she could to keep me and Heaven safe. It was giving me bad flashbacks to Season 8 when Nicole went back on the deal and Heather kept saying she had nothing to do with it. I didn't believe her lmfao!

I was confident for POV and thought me and my boy Brian could kill the competition and win it. I was good with this challenge before and if he couldn't find a lot I could still do the challenge by myself. But when the website screwed up the layout changed and I knew my ship sailed on winning.. no way was Brian going to have a good time or a good score. I don't want to shit on the guy but he's not good at challenges! This is the guy that I prepared every post for in HOH and labeled each one so he knew what to post.. but he still messed up three times! I thought he was throwing it but eveyone told me he's just that bad lmfao. Once we lost I knew I had to fall back on Heather and her promise to help me out. Turns out she was honest? She does want me to stay. She told me she trusted the votes she heard she had and said they wouldn't lie to her.

Last night I went around to secure these votes! Zach, Nick, Memphis, Keith and Heaven all promised to keep me. Heaven said that Sofia would keep me too but I left her an offline to be sure. That was five votes or six with Sofia but it didn't hurt to try for more. I always thought Neda was a cool chick and we had okay conversations and wanted to hit her up and see if she would keep me. After all I did save her with the POV before and every time we talked before she would bring up wanting to work together and I'd always agree. Turns out it was all bullshit lmfao. I could tell three minutes in that this chick wasn't going to keep me. Everyone shits on Neda for not taking things serious and being annoying but I stuck up for the girl and said she was only having a good time. Neda goes on to ask if I'm robot and said she can't keep a robot in and then when I deny she asks if Heaven and I are the same person then lmfao. She then tries to tell me that Sofia is evicting me and she's hearing that Rachelle and I are going home.. when I know that's not true. Is this girl really trolling me when my game is in the air?

I told Heather about it and Heather said it's because Neda is with Boog and Candice. That makes sense lmfao. I have heard for a while how those chicks have been after me.. from Zach and Rachelle. Those three are an "anti-trio". Sorry for the language but it fucking annoys me how I get clumped with Heaven and Sofia and if they feel some way about something or someone everyone assumes that's how I feel to. I had this chat with Heather, Memphis and Keith. I'm close to Heaven because she's my friend but I'm not that close with Sofia just because Heaven is lmfao. I like Sofia and I'm not coming after her because she's an ally.. but just because she hates Heather for example doesn't mean I'm going to do what she wants and evict her or put her up.

This brings me to old boy Mike. What's this dude's problem? He has beef with Heaven and Sofia from another game so he wrote me off and wants me gone? The guy never gave me a chance. I knew I was going to get shit for being Heaven's friend and knowing her in AS but I didn't think I'd be tied to another chick and we'd be called the "trio" all over the game lmfao. Because of everyone we are working together. They made a monster so now they'll deal with it until we're gone! I should be staying lmfao but crazier things have happened. I don't think any of the people I talked to last night would lie to me? All of them will be safe if I win HOH and I'll be going for my known enemies.. the people who were trying to get me out.

I don't know what's going on with Rachelle staying or going.. she should stay because the votes should be there. Zach was acting like she wouldn't have the votes even if the alliance voted to keep her. I told Heaven about it and Heaven said she wasn't changing her vote but that Zach had other votes he could get to keep her safe. I can't campaign for Rachelle when I'm in trouble and Heaven said she didn't want to because she knew Heather wanted Rachelle out and didn't want to jeopardize me. I hope Rachelle and I stick around so we can all get back at the people who tried to get us out of here man!

[Ryan Ginns]

Dude.. this isn't cool. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later but it should've been me not Heaven. I want to be here and I want to keep playing but I know Heaven cared a lot about this game. It sucks having one of your best friends up with a new friend. I like both a lot and they both offer a lot to my game. Heaven is a beast at competitions and I know she would always have my back without a doubt! Heather has been a help and proved that last week when she helped keep me in the game. Heather knows the ins and outs of a lot of the relationships in the house. What I need to ask myself now is.. would Heather also have my back without a doubt? If she did then she would have my vote to stay. But I don't think that's the case..

I think Heather values me in this game as I do her.. but if I were up against one of her best friends (see: Keith) then I would expect a vote to evict. I get it and I hope she would understand if I did the same. I live by the motto 'bros before hoes'.. not that Heather is a hoe lmfao but you get what I'm saying! I don't want either of them to go but I have to vote and I have to move on. The one silver lining that doesn't make this a crushing blow is the returnee twist from my season coming into play. I think Heaven has what it takes to come back and I hope whatever it is that she gives it her 110%! The thought of playing this game without Heaven gives me small relief of not being grouped in with her all the time but it comes with a sense of loneliness because she was someone I knew I could always count on.

Not winning HOH was a let down man. I didn't do good and was caught up in the flash games. I was stubburn lmfao and wanted to beat them all but would keep alternating between all of them. It wasn't a good strategy and I suffered a loss because of it! I want to get back in the saddle of winning soon because not having power has been shaking my confidence. I can't always depend on other people to help me out. If I lose my ability to win competitions then I'll lose my worth to some of these guys. I know here on out is going to be a battle. Whoever this secret HOH was wasn't playing games and if this is a preview of what's to come with maybe MVP.. then we have trouble coming!

[Ryan Ginns]

If Heaven didn't come back I was going to feel out of my element. Heaven's been a huge help to my game and her leaving those couple days had me feeling disoriented lmfao! For the endurance to wrap with her coming back and Heather winning HOH.. it couldn't have been better! After a paranoid week of a Blackout HOH, my allies and I could rest easy and not worry about anything! Heather went almost a day in this challenge and my jaw was on the floor. And supposedly I'm the robot? LMFAO! Heather beasted! After talks with her I knew she was going to go for a player like Mike because we all thought he was the mystery HOH last week. She put up Mike and Matt as a pawn.

Heather picked Zach for POV which isn't that surprising lmfao but what did surprise me was when Mike picked Sofia. What's up with these two lmfao. Sofia always tells Heaven and I how much she hates Mike but there is always something happening with them that says opposite. I got picked to play too which was a welcome change! I've been feeling bottom tier with no challenge wins the past couple weeks. It wasn't my norm! I don't want to appear useless to my allies so winning a challenge to reaffirm my worth was something I wanted to do. I wanted to win this POV! I did it the afternoon it was due because I knew I'd be alone and could focus. I ended up liking the competition a lot lmfao. I hadn't done one like that before and enjoyed it. I wound up winning too which was a great relief as Mike almost won to save himself! I don't know who the replacement would've been but after talking to Heather most of the day she suggested it would have been Boog.

I waited around to see if any of the nominees would talk to me yesterday. Both of them were on and I stayed on a bit and only Matt came to me. I told him how I wasn't going to use the POV but that he had my vote to stay. I don't have anything personal with Mike but the dude makes no effort with me and I make no effort with him. It goes both ways and that's cool. No worries. I heard about the rough goodbye he left Heaven and he's holding onto some dirty laundry from another game which is what we all guessed he was doing. He hasn't forgiven Heaven and he won't give me a chance because she and I are close. For my game and for Heaven's game it makes sense for Mike to be evicted because he won't be an ally of ours and will be one to nominate us if he ever won.

I had a long chat with Memphis and we're on the same page with the vote. I like Memphis. I think he's a rad guy and our chats flow. Memphis was telling me how Mike was already campaigning for votes. Then Sofia told me how Mike was already campaigning for votes. Mike assumed I wasn't going to use it without asking me. I wish he would've broken the ice in some way but he didn't and I guess it would've seemed dooshy to not talk all game and then ask me about POV. No harm no foul. I posted my ceremony and things became official.

I started to go around and feel where everyone was with the vote. Brian was giving me nothing lmfao. At one point he didn't answer me for an hour but was talking to other people. I had asked him what he was thinking for the vote. I get the idea he wants to keep Mike based on the things he's been saying but acts like he can't or he'll piss people off. Brian started to bother me too when he implied I was a "god" and that everyone else were "mere mortals" when it came to that POV challenge. It seemed like a passive aggressive jab but I didn't reciprocate. It reminded me of how Jessica acted during S8 in the Jury forum. I'm starting to shift back to my old opinion of the dude.

[Ryan Ginns]

What a blast of events my friends! Sofia winning wasn't the all time greatest but I knew that I would at the very least be safe lmfao. Sofia and I have a weird relationship.. If Heaven wasn't here I don't know if Sofia and I would be close. I like how bold the chick is but she's after people that have been helping me in the game. I heard about how angry she was that people campaigned to keep me but not Rachelle. I don't think it's because she wanted me to go but implidc she would have preferred Rachelle stay over me lmfao. Sofia and I won't nominate eachother but we have opposite agendas and are doing our own thing. There's nothing wrong with that but it will catch up to us soon. That said.. she nominated and went for the guys on this side of the house and if I win HOH I'll be going for the girls that seem to be on her side of the house.

Nick and Memphis are rad. Both of them are my dudes and I respect both of them as players. Memphis gave me a chance when many people didn't and Nick has been the chillest. Nick is the type of guy I'd be friends with outside the game. When you didn't think the nominations could get any worse.. they do. Zach Attack goes up and we have the three guys who saved me and kept me in the game. Apparently the rumors of their alliance with Heather started up because they all wanted me to stay and keep me in the house. I can see why. I don't know if the alliance is true or not but it's something to store in the back of your mind. With these three guys up, it made the POV something likely to be used.

Sofia won lmfao and I'm surprised to say it.. but I was jumping for joy. I think if Sofia was going to use it on anyone she'd use it on Zach but she knows if she did that then she'd be putting Heaven in harm's way. Heaven could have gone up or Heather or myself. I can't have Heaven or Heather leave because I know those two girls will have my back for a long time. Them in a precarious spot wouldn't be good for me at all. The nominations staying sparked the campaign trail. I was back and forth between Nick and Zach at first. Everyone started telling me Nick had Candice, Boog and Neda keeping him. That's weird no? The three chicks I don't trust and voted me out all have his back? What's Nick up to over there? I know he's a smooth talker and is a relatable guy but if he has something with them that wouldn't be good for me.

It makes sense for me to keep Zach. Heather and Zach were the two people that campaigned for me to stay. Nick wasn't around and Memphis didn't do as much from what I know. They voted to keep me and I thank them a thousand and one times but I know Heather and Zach were the forces behind that. I have to pay Zach back with my vote. I told Nick that if things weren't looking good for him that I'd throw a vote his way and for him to let me know, but he hasn't told me anything so he must have the three girls and is okay. I don't like losing Memphis because he's a decent dude and would have been someone on my side. But I know it's Big Brother and you're going to lose allies along the way. I hope that next round we can gain some ground and knock out Candice or Neda.