Episode 4!

[hayley]

Hey! I'm sorry I've been MIA this round and ahhhhhh I have to go to work! Here's a video confeshy to update ya on the round thus far! I'll try and write another one once I get home tonight.

youtu.be/RF-0rrjRlDY

[hayley]

Well this has been a gross and sucktacular day for this blonde bombshell!

First off we had the veto results come out and I was pleasantly surprised with myself! I got 5th.... but I was like right behind Boog so it's not like I was a total disaster. And Ryan ended up winning!!! I was really excited about this because I like Ryan and I felt like I had a good relationship with him and I HOPED he would use the veto on me!!

However, I started talking to people and found out first from Mike that he would NOT be going up! Apparently he and Sofia made a deal and would not be putting each other up. SO I PMed Ryan and pleaded my case and HOPED he would keep me!

And then I got a message back from him that he would be using the veto.... on NEDA! Apparently he and Sofia had a plan to backdoor someone and felt that I would have the votes to stick around more than Neda. Ugh... it just makes me feel so icky and gross! I don't want to be used as a pawn so blatently like I have felt this round. I seriously think that people have honestly felt that since I'm nice that it's okay to just USE me and I will just sit here and smile blandly and say LOL. Well, it's not! I have a brain and I'm not a bubblehead and don't like being used and abused!

And then Sofia nominated Shilpa. WHICH, I like Shilpa okay even though we haven't really talked a lot and she's always been nice to me! But I'm not going to just sit back and be evicted so I started doing my campaigning for my vote. I knew by doing the numbers in this gigantic house I'd need eight votes to at least tie the eviction vote!

I first found an ally in Rachelle! She totally has my back and is voting to keep me and also let me know that Heaven, Ryan and Zach are. Memphis also told me he had my back and Neda did as well! So right there that's six votes!!!

However.... I found out very quickly that Shilpa has a LOT of friends in this game! And it really sucks cause some of those people are people I thought would have my back! Heather is one. I actually consider her the person I'm closest too in this game on a personal level so it kind of hurts that she's gonna vote for me but I understand it. Although she asked me if I hated her now and I was like "..... um this is an org! of course not!" Do I really give off psycho vibes that make people think that I would flip out at them?

Keith as well is someone that I love but he is closer with Shilpa than with me. So I understand that a little better. We talked about it and I still think he's sweet so whatever.

There are some others that haven't SAID to my face that they're voting me but they've told other people. Candice is one who I understand since we never talk. Boog Christine and Matt are others that are apparently voting for me but I really like them! So that kind of hurts.

The BIGGEST one that shocked me and actually made me kind of mad was Mike! Mike told me he didn't know what he was gonna do and I was FLOORED. Mike is someone who knows me outside of this series and he went out of his way to PM me on facebook before the game started and ask for an alliance! And he knows that I'm a person of my word and won't break it. And now.... he's just like "Um, I dunno what I'm gonna do?" Screw that! It makes me mad because more than anyone else in this game he knows what kind of a player I am and he took advantage of my loyalty.

There's also a few other waffling people. The biggest one is Brian (SURPRISE) So I had to suck it up and talk to him and HOPEFULLY he's going to vote to keep me! That's what Rachelle has said anyway.

My one ace in the hole I think is gonna be Nick! Which sucks cause I've voted to evict him but I'm just gonna send hin a PM and be honest with him. I have heard he doesn't get along with Shilpa so that may work in my favor!

So.... my eight votes that I have are Rachelle, Ryan, Heaven, Zach, Memphis, Neda, and.... I'm banking on Brian and Nick. And if I get those ones down I think some more might jump in the train!

I'm so nervous because I am going to be devastated if I leave this round. I want to stay so badly and get to the next stage of the game!!! I'm going to just campaign and give it my all and if I get eliminated I can say I went down fighting. Wish me luck!

[hayley]

Well today is my day of reckoning! The vote is due in a FEW hours and I've tried my best to talk to people and make some deals to make sure I stick around! This has been kind of fun but also really stressful and frustrating! I feel like the vote is basically coming down to people wanting Shilpa to stay and people wanting Shilpa to go. I don't really think anyone is really voting for Shilpa because they want ME to stay....which sucks. BUT I am going to make the most of it and keep werking it all the way to the eviction deadline! I'm going to just divide everyone into categories so I can organize in my head where I BELIEVE everyone is standing...

Right now there are SEVEN people that I believe definitely have my back in this vote:
Heaven, Memphis, Neda, Nick, Rachelle, Ryan, and Zach.

Sofia also has my back but she's HOH so at least that makes me only need eight votes instead of nine to stick around.

On the other side, there are also THREE people who have told me to my face that they are going to evict me:
Heather, Keith and Mike.

There are also TWO people that have not told me to my face they are going to evict me but I have heard from other people that they are probably voting that way:
Christine, Matt

Ash is someone  that I actually haven't heard anything about from anyone but I'm assuming they're voting to evict me.

Finally, there are THREE people that are kind of swing votes and I hope I can get their votes:
Brian, Candice, Boog

So, sigh, I'm going to try and work it! I know whatever the vote is it's going to be close but I hope to lord baby Jesus i can stay. This round has also really shown me who has my back and who really doesn't... so that's gonna help me out down the line I feel. I feel like this round also set some sides up in the house and I hope I'm on the winning side... I think once again I've kind of made friends with the right people just like in my original season! Ugh, I hope that's the case anyway. I also think I've kind of shown myself this round that I can strategize and I'm not just a floater in this game. People may see me as a pawn but I DO know how to play this game and I hope I can turn things around for myself next round!