Man, I really shouldn't have read HCs late at night since I'm probably not going to be able to sleep now. Having what, 30 people shit on you when you've approached things 4 different ways and not been disrespectful to people or gone after them? I know it sounds like whining but I genuinely don't know what it'd take to get some damn respect from some of you guys or what you even freaking want from me when I'm playing. I mean fuck, is it really THAT hard to try and take out some pre-conceived notions and not have me wind up getting shit on like I'm g0 or something?
I'll probably be a bit better in the morning when I calm down, but still.
Brian, maybe we were harsh on you in housecalls, but 90% of your moves in this game were questionable. So many times you'd say you wanna do something and then just ended up doing what Zach wanted. Sorry, but that's a fact. You definitely tried convincing Zach to change his mind at times, but then instead of just doing what you wanted, you folded. It's not a game people usually enjoy watching. And tbh, you ramble a lot. You write a long ass paragraph with 3 run-on sentences. We could never keep up with what you actually want to say. Sometimes you just have to be direct.
Brian, sorry for when I was rude. I never was judging you as a person and instead was just judging your game based on what we saw. Maybe you did really consider every option always, but your moves were also always telegraphed by others before you even made them. That's fine if you completely agree with those moves, but more often than not you'd indicate the moves were bad for your game... And then go through with them anyways.
its not easy to root for that. But then again, it doesn't define you as a person so please don't take it personal.
Re: Shir Okay, the bit on run-on sentences I can get for sure, yeah. Part of the problem with hearing about issues people I play with have is that I always respect and appreciate more when people actually tell me at the time whatever is bothering them is happening instead of reading about it later. Think of it as the whole "I can't fix a problem if I don't know it exists" thing.
Besides, it may just be in the context of "spur of the moment", but surely you have to understand that seeing a slew of negative comments about you from people you respect and legitimately want to get along with/get to know/etc always sucks. Having it happen on multiple occasions after different approaches does make it a bit worse sometimes, but I guess I can always try to take it as motivation for next time.
I guess what I'm trying to say ifs: 1. I feel a bit overwhelmed ATM, 2. it's a bit difficult remembering not to take it personally, 3. some gameplay questioning aside, it's still a bit confusing to me on how it started in the first place since I've always tried to (or at least thought I was) be respectful.
I know that's a little bit more rambly than I'd have liked, but really I just figured I can't help reach an understanding unless I try to explain where I'm coming from tonight.
If for some fucked up reason Nick stays then it makes the game fun for me cause I'll have someone to chase around the house until I throw him out of the game on his ass.
LOL AND THEN YOU ACTUALLY GOT THROWN OUT OF THE GAME ON YOUR ASS
I just want to say I've had such a fun time reading everyone's confeshys! Especially Neda, Nick, Boog, Heather and Zach, you guys were so funny and insightful and smart about the game!!
LOL reading them has also taught me I had NO IDEA what was going on the whole time. I had no idea how in over my head I must have looked until I started to read everyone's thoughts! I'm definitely taking this experiene and learning from it. Goal for next time I play a BB game if I ever do: MAKE A DAMN ALLIANCE HAYLEY!!! LOL!