and what makes me so mad is that I have so much ammo against Zach and Nick I could use. I could easily go to Matt and Brian and tell them I knew everything about the suicide squad/brodown showdown. But I would feel too guilty and that's just not the kind of player I am. I could never do that to Zach. I really feel like I'm just not made out for ORGs anymore. I'm just not cutthroat enough and I'm annoyingly loyal. Blah.
I sent a PM to Heaven because she hasn't been on AIM all day. and I also sent one to Ryan too - we spoke earlier and he said he was undecided. I'm pretty sure both will vote for Zach but it doesn't hurt to try. I think of the two, I have a better shot at Ryan's vote. I spoke to Brian tonight and he's so... Brian. He won't give me a straight answer. I basically flat-out asked, "are you voting to save Zach?" *silence for 10 minutes* "uh..." So annoying. He did say he was open to ideas because he wants both of us to stay and I threw out the 3-3-3 idea but he didn't seem so receptive to it either. I'm really starting to feel like this is an uphill battle but I don't want to give up. I really wish this had been vote to evict rather than vote to save.
I feel for Ryan - the reason he's been targeted is because of his reputation and relationship with Heaven. But none of these people have ever sat down and just talked to him, person to person. He's a really nice guy and that's part of the reason why I kept him 3 rounds ago.