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Nick4veto

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Whew. I have the post-veto shakes, haha. I'm so pumped up on adrenaline! Going to try and write a confessional anyway.

I definitely worked to win that veto. I was studying the memory wall, and doing practice puzzles. I got a bit mixed up, though. I was using this week's memory wall, which means everyone's shifted a bit from their original position. Additionally, I was practicing on jigsaw planet and the actual competition was on flash gear. I think I did pretty well, though. I wasn't upset with my time. I'd love to win, but I don't think that I will. I'm thinking Nick will, but I'm praying that Ryan doesn't. If Ryan wins, Drew is going to want Nick to go, and I really don't want to do that yet. But I would do it! I don't think Nick would stick his neck out for me, so I won't stick my neck out for him. I'll do what I can, subtly, to backdoor Candice > Nick, but I don't see it happening.

With Nick and Ryan being nominated, I think that Ryan leaving helps my game the most. Heather wants Ryan to stay and Candice to go, and I'm acting like I do, but I don't. I think Ryan staying helps her game, but not mine. I realize Candice is a detriment to my game because she's volatile, but I can beat Candice. I can't beat Ryan. And I gotta try and take out these people I can't beat.

In house 1, I'd like Nicole to go. Heaven is scary, and may put me up, but hopefully she has other targets for now. I like Nicole, but she's going to be a number for Zach in this game, not me. Zach cut Casey for that reason, so I'd love to see Nicole follow him out the door. Bye.

In house 2, I want Chris gone. He'll never help my game. We don't even talk. I trust Diva way more than Chris, and I want her here. I think she'll stay over Chris, too. Hopefully Sofia or Zach just win veto, nominations stay, and Chris goes.

If Ryan, Nicole, and Chris all leave this week, it'll be a great week for Shilpa. At this point, I just have to see who wins veto. I'm praying Ryan isn't too great at puzzles, but what isn't he good at?

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Congrats again Ryan, Sofia & Heaven!

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Me convincing Matt to evict Nicole. Fuck with me and I fuck right back, Zach.

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Okay, so, today has been a mess. LOL. Every day of this game is messy, kinda like BB17. I love it and hate it. It all started this morning when I talked to Drew, and he told me instantly that we need to talk game. All of the conversations we had, though, were about his other options. He also told me how much he wants to work with me, and I reciprocate those feelings. So I'm not worried for myself, just Nick. Anyway, he told me that Chris tried to get me up. Hey, at least he told me, right! And I'm not surprised. I certainly didn't stop Zach from targeting Chris this week, and so, it's fine. I get it.

Then, Drew asked, "My only option is Candice, right?" And I tried to seem non-committal. I even offered up that I wanted Candice out emotionally, but he should do what he feels is best. He wanted to gather intel throughout the day and use that to make a decision, which made sense to me. So, in the meantime, I spoke to Curtis and Brittany, both of whom said that they heard Candice was going up. Perfect, I thought! But, it gets messier.

~insert time where I deal with house 1 drama and Heather complaining about Nicole's posse trying to keep her in the game and I tell Matt about all of it~

Okay so then I get home from work, and I hear (from Heather and Nick) that Candice has thrown me under the bus to Drew. I don't even get it. I have NEVER heard of someone throwing their friends under the bus in the first two weeks of an all-star game. It's unbelievable. She's turned this game into a monster, and it didn't need to be one. I guess this week was fair, because I wanted her up, but last week, she started a bloodbath that was unnecessary. And it all serviced Shadow. And now, Shadow is evicting the person he saved! It's kinda funny. Anyway, Candice throws me under the bus, which would be scary, but I do really trust Drew. I'm not too worried. But then, Keith (literally who even are you) steps in and tells Drew not to nominate Candice, and instead, do Brittany. And Candice was all gloating to Nick that she might be safe, because Keith saved her. Now, Nick is annoyed because he feels he can't stay against Brittany, and I'm annoyed because I wanted Candice to leave. It's so frustrating, ugh!

And Drew is just like, not around. He's running errands, or something. Ughhh. I just want to talk to him, and figure out what's going on. I need some more time in his ear to convince him to do Candice. Gah, if Candice, Chris, and Nicole leave this week, it'll be glorious.

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Drew's so fucking dumb.

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Well, that's all-stars for ya! Or, not. Is there a curse on House #1, or something. Both House #1 HOHs have told someone they'd be the replacement nominee, and then nominated someone else with little-to-no-warning. It's unbelievable! People don't even play this way in regular big brother. I can't believe it's happening in an ORG all-stars. It's amateur hour, really. Apparently Keith really got to Drew and changed the Candice nomination. It's just nuts. I completely understand trying to place your influence when you think you can save or eliminate someone, and it will benefit your game, but I can't believe Drew listened.

Brittany is someone who's really safe in the game. So from that perspective, her leaving isn't horrible. She is Drew's target now, by the way. Like I would never want to be on the block next to Brittany. So I don't mind her leaving too much, but I'd still prefer Candice to go. If for nothing more than instant karma. Chris and Nicole seem to be going from the other houses, which is fine by me. I wouldn't have exactly fought Nick leaving but I did want him to stay. I don't know. I can't get an accurate read on where he stands with me.

The veto winners, jesus. I really think they're all going to be HOH next week, too. I'm praying it's a competition I can win, but how many of those are there? I'm so scared for the next HOH already. Each competition from here on out is going to be a bloodbath, really.

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Okay, lots to update! Happy 4th, my American PWs <3. And belated happy Canada Day (July 1st) to you Canadians out (pronounced oot) there <3.

So, last week ended with Nicole, Chris, and Brittany being evicted. I think this was a great week for me, all in all. It reduces other people's numbers in this game, but none of mine. And I'm not going to be held responsible for a single eviction. Definitely lucked out on that one. A lot of people showed their hands with Nicole leaving. Like, Jesus. People from all kinds of houses were going to Heather and asking her to flip her vote and save Nicole. It was really funny, actually. Heather told me about all of it and it's ridiculous how transparently these people are playing. There's no chesting of cards, whatsoever. But hey, if that's their MO, then cool.

At the end of last week, I reached out to Ryan. Heather and I talk frequently and she was telling me about last season, how people treated Ryan like a pariah, never talking to him, hoping he'd just lose. Meanwhile, Heather reached out to him and treated him well. I decided to pay him the same respect. Ryan and I got to talking and had a great conversation. Eventually, it evolved into some game discussion which was really interesting. We made a deal, agreeing not to target each other. Ryan even said verbatim, "who leaves after Sofia, Heaven, and I? It's gonna be you, Nick, Zach, and Heather. And while he called out all of my closest friends, he's right! They can't all leave. If they do, I'm so next. So, I have my deal with Ryan and I intend on sticking to it. I think he'll be loyal to me, too. But this is all-stars, and Ryan kept Nick last week pretty decidedly. I think that Zach, Heather, and Nick could all have deals with Ryan. Pretty scary.

Going into this HOH, I wanted to win it so badly but it was bad weather for a perfect storm. Starts with an HOH that I'm not great at, and no time to study. I had holiday weekend plans starting Thursday evening, and I had work all day Thursday, so I had to just bite the bullet and do the competition when it went up. So I knew I wouldn't win. I knew that people like Ash, Rachelle, and the trio (Heaven, Ryan, Sofia) were great at this. Unfortunately, Ash didn't win. And how I wish he had! I think he'd have done some damage this week. Oh well. Our winners were the trio, and Rachelle. And I felt, okay? I had just made my deal with Ryan, and that could help me with Heaven, too. I feel like I am on okay terms with Sofia, and Rachelle and I are good.

For the button, I wanted to get it. I figured it'd be immunity or some sort of power. Maybe dethroning an HOH? I wasn't sure. I wanted to either use it to dethrone an HOH and make a deal with the HOHs that I leave in power, or just stay safe all together. But, I didn't get it. And Ryan did. I was pretty worried about this when it happened, because I wanted to use Ryan to leverage my safety with the rest of the trio. It's an early time to call on a new deal but desperate times call for desperate measures. And I felt like Ryan was out of the way, in a bad way, now that he was at the bungalow. I got put into a house with Rachelle and Sofia, and so I went to work.

Also shout out to Hayley for winning her first RNF comp <3 <3.

At this point, my phone battery was pretty low and I was stuck at an amusement park for the next 8 hours or so. I was in a bad situation with being able to be social so I went straight for the jugular. I shot off a PM to Rachelle and acted like I had no reason to be worried. Told her congrats and made some joke about Rachilpa. It was cute. She never responded, though, which had me worried! I then went to work on Sofia. We had a conversation like this:

Shilpa
Hey Sofia! Congrats on hoh!

My phone is about to die and I'm at an amusement park for the night so I won't be around. I know we haven't talked a lot of game, but if you kept me safe I'd definitely reciprocate.

I'll be around late tonight and tomorrow so maybe we can actually chat. Congrats again!

Sofia
Thanks for the message doll!

I might not be around a lot tomorrow cause of the 4th and am doing my talking with people tonight. I might be on tomorrow but it won't be for long with all the shit I have planned.

We haven't talked a lot of game but thank you for saying that. IF I did keep you safe I would hope you'd honor that deal and keep me safe if you won too. I'm dealing with a lot of people throwing eachother under the bus LOL and it's not surprising.

Shilpa
No problem! I completely understand your position. I'm sure people are throwing me utb but I'm good on my word. I have no one to throw utb to you because what would that even do? I'm not just gonna shit on others for no great reason.

If you recall in shadow I never made adeal with you and that's bc I knew you'd see right through it. I was loyal to my alliance there and I like to think my word means something. Thanks for hearing mr out. Alos my phone is on 2% lol

So, my goal was to basically not come across as shady, and just try to be sincere. I think that I did an okay job? Well, I did good enough because I'm safe. I just tried to sell myself as someone she could depend on in the future, and someone who isn't gonna talk shit about people just to save myself from a nomination. Which I don't do a whole hell of a lot. I get scared that the HOH might throw me up anyway and then use what I say as leverage to get me evicted. Anyway! Whatever I said was good enough to keep me from going up alongside Mike. Though, I kinda think she wouldn't put me with Mike anyway because she would think we could win.

Rachelle never responded, which scared me. But when I logged on AIM this morning, I heard that Candice and Neda were going up, which is good news. Another week not on the block! Candice and Neda are likely going to win the battle of the block against Mike and Matt, which is fine. I'm okay with Mike leaving. I'd like for him to stay but not at the expense of some of my other alliances. I think that if Mike were to win veto, Nick or Drew would be backdoored. I hope that Sofia buys what I'm selling her and will keep me safe. I think that Drew's move against Ryan last week has him lined up as a great backdoor opportunity, and I'm hoping that Nick is less social with Sofia than I am. I don't want Nick or Drew to leave, but if it has to be me or one of them, then it's gotta be one of them.

I really don't know if I'll follow through with Sofia or not. Who knows, the check may never even be cashed. I can't say whether or not I'll win an HOH against this crop. If I do, great! I'll figure it out then. No use stressing about it now, though. I just have to try and stay safe with the hands I'm dealt. I would actually love to see Mike and Matt win BOTB just to spice up the week, but we'll see. I just want to make it through this week. One of the trio HAS to go next week. I agree with them sticking around being good for being meat shields for other power players, but all 3 of them in is too much. I want Heaven out but I'm not going to ignore her. I need to make an effort with her because it's likely she'll be in the game for a long time.

Ummm I think that's all for now? I don't know, I'm impressed if you're still reading. :) Overall I'm happy with how the game is going so far. Hopefully I'm set for week 4 / final 19!

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Okay, so it's time for another update! There wasn't any funny business with nominations, but there was a lot of drama! Ika went off, per usual, and Ash and Brian fought a lot. Talk about irrelevant fighting :x lol. But I mean, seriously! These people should not be fighting with each other, they're all just expendable to the people in power. I guess Ash tried to get out one of the people in power this week, but it backfired lolol.

Ash had this plan where he was going to throw BOTB to try and get Heaven backdoored. Unfortunately, he didn't check his receipts to know that Hayley would definitely not do that. So silly. So, he tells Ika about his plan, Ika tells Rachelle, Rachelle tells Zach, and Zach tells Heaven. What a mess! But hey, it kinda shows where Zach's loyalty lies, and I'm fine with that. Anyway, despite Ash's feeble attempts, he was no match for Brian's amazing comp goddessness. (lol) I don't even get it. He's won two comps, and I've won zero! So embarrassing. Anyway, so that was upset #1 of the week! And it sucks because I like and connect with Christine far more than Ash or Brian. I hope she can somehow stay this week but the chances for her are grim.

Looking over at my house, there was another upset. Rachelle didn't even want to retain her HOH! However, Candice and Neda flopped hard at the BotB and stayed as nominees. I kinda think they threw it, actually. I just had a conversation with Heather that somewhat validated my theory (at least circumstantially) in which Candice told Heather that she wants Sofia backdoored. Apparently she plugged it to Rachelle a little last night, and Rachelle seemed receptive. No complaints here! Sofia's a massive threat and if she can leave, and I get no blood on my hands, then no skin off my ass! I won't lose sleep over it. However, I'm fully anticipating on Sofia winning veto, so we'll see what happens then.

At this point, my strategy is to lay low this week. I'm gonna talk to Rachelle to see where her head is at, but I'll support whatever. I'm not going to push hard for Rachelle to backdoor Sofia because I think they could be close. If Candice wants to go for it, that's fine. I don't need credit for a move in week 3. I have no power this week, so I'm not going to try for anything powerful. I think my best bet is to lay low right now. IF Sofia happens to go up, I'm gonna capitalize on it. But otherwise, I'll just sit tight. I'll update later with my conversation with Rachelle.

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Zach Rance (6:43:58 PM): is vic
Zach Rance (6:44:03 PM): like realllly close to christine

Literally some of the rudest, most disrespectful shit I've ever seen in my life. Sorry that someone pulled themselves off the block. It doesn't mean they cheated. Get over yourself.

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So yesterday night, I spent a good amount of time just feeling everyone out in our house. The first piece of information I came across came from Heather, in which she told me that Candice went to Rachelle and tried to get her to backdoor Sofia. I started talking to Rachelle later, and Rachelle basically spilled everything. She was asking my opinions on certain people, and definitely seemed receptive to the idea of a Sofia backdoor. I was jumping out of my chair in excitement on the inside, but on the outside, I acted hesitant. Rachelle even said that she made a deal with Sofia and would feel guilty betraying it, and I supported that guilt. I gave her a lukewarm response because I didn't want her to have anything on me should Sofia win veto. And Sofia did!

It's basically common knowledge that Rachelle wants Neda or Candice to come off the block. So now it's like, what do I do? If Sofia does use it, then I have a 1 in 4 chance of going up. I'm not too worried because I do think I have a strong relationship with Rachelle, but you never know. She blindsided me so badly in season 9 it's hard to tell what her intentions are. But I am acting like I'm worried about nothing. That's kinda been my MO so far. Paranoid on the interior, calm and trusting on the exterior. Except Casey, but, whatever.

Rachelle asked me what my relationship with Nick was and I tried to downplay it. She asked Drew what his relationship with me was and he said he tried to downplay it. She told me she talks to Drew the least in our house but wanted to change that. I feel like if Rachelle didn't want to waste a week on Candice or Neda, would she really go after Boog? Like in her mind, would that be very different? I don't think so, really. But I'm not sure. I kinda feel like if Sofia uses veto, replacement nominee will be a tossup between myself, Nick, and Drew. Based on my relationship with her, and how she said she wants to get to know Drew better, I could see it being Nick. If Nick goes up, I'm going to fight for him to stay against Neda or Candice.

Really, it comes down to the same decision as last week. Nick is more of a target for Sofia / Ryan / Heaven, and has the ability to win competitions and go after them. I think that Nick is loyal to me and I want him to stay around. I don't see Neda or Candice benefiting my game nearly as much.

If Sofia doesn't use the veto, then great. I don't care enough about either nominee, at least in relation to the other, to try and sway the house. I'll just go along with whatever. But I have a feeling veto will be used and it won't be that easy. I'm not super worried but I do acknowledge that I could go up. If I did, I would be depending on Drew, Matt, Mike, and Nick to keep me in the game.

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Apparently Drew is going to go up. Sitting quietly and letting that happen!

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This vote has been a messssss. I really thought once Drew went up, it wouldn't be too hard to get 4 votes for him to stay. But I've been sadly mistaken. I think Drew could definitely leave tonight. Before Drew was officially named replacement, I was super vague with everyone. I'm sure that gave everyone a nice indication of how much I trust them lol which is not at all.

Anyway, I promised Rachelle that I'd evict Drew but I was lying. I've been fighting all day for Drew to stay and it's been rough! Almost instantly, Mike and Sofia were going to evict Candice and Drew respectively. Matt and I both gravitated pretty quickly toward evicting Candice, while Nick, Boog, and Neda all seem to be leaning toward evicting Drew. So the goal has been to flip one of Nick, Boog, or Neda. And it's been a hell of a time.

Nick, from the start, really wanted to evict Drew. And that still stands. I think Drew pissed him off enough between his nomination and then this week, telling Rachelle to backdoor Nick. So it sucks, but Nick and Candice have proven to be close in this game so whatever.

Boog is an interesting case. She seems to be open to the idea with me, but to everyone else, she seems like a locked vote to evict Drew. So I'm not really sure what's going on. Matt's currently working on her, but I honestly expect her to evict Drew. Her and Candice are friends, too, so I had to anticipate this. Really, Boog might be one of Candice's top priorities in the entire game. So it sucks that Drew has to face off against Candice for Boog's vote. Anyone, really, would be in bad shape.

Lastly, there's Neda. Before replacement nominee was named, I would have assumed Neda would do what Rachelle wanted. Now, I'm not so sure. Apparently Rachelle and Sofia told Neda she'd be a bad pawn because she's annoys people. Ouch! Neda wasn't too thrilled by this, and I tried to be there for her. And not just for game reasons either. I genuinely like Neda as a person and I felt bad for her. It's never fun to be told you're annoying, regardless of the context or who says it. Poor Neda! But I've been working on her vote. We had a strange conversation about threats in this game. Neda is more worried about social threats, and she thinks Drew staying helps the social threats. I am more worried about physical threats, and Drew staying hurts their game. I tried to argue to Neda that Ryan, Hevaen, and Sofia (who she's scared of) are not your regular physical threats. In BB, sometimes you can depend on the fact that physical threats will leave over time, but I don't think that's the case here. These three all won their way to the ends of their seasons, despite being not so well liked by the house. They dominated the game physically, and they're doing it again. I told Neda that we need people who can win competitions and will put them up, as Drew has proven he will do. It's nothing against Candice, it's just Drew is better for our games.

She said she's considering it but things are looking pretty bleak. I'm so worried. I think Drew going would be detrimental for my game. He's such a big target for Ryan, Heaven, Sofia, and Zach, and I want him around to contest with them. I get to stay in the middle and it really betters my position.

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I hope Nick likes the underside of a bus! giggity

Nick Uhas (5:14:13 PM): fighting for votes
Nick Uhas (5:14:17 PM): against an unknown replacement nom
Nick Uhas (5:14:19 PM): having a blast
Nick Uhas (5:14:20 PM): over here
Shilpa Shetty (5:14:49 PM):lmaoo
Shilpa Shetty (5:14:51 PM): sounds like 2
Shilpa Shetty (5:14:53 PM): terrible events
Nick Uhas (5:14:58 PM): ya vry
Nick Uhas (5:15:16 PM): so drew
Nick Uhas (5:15:19 PM): told candice it might be her
Nick Uhas (5:15:25 PM): now candice is trying to convince him
Nick Uhas (5:15:27 PM): to put you up
Shilpa Shetty (5:15:29 PM): ah
Shilpa Shetty (5:15:30 PM): yay

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Sorry it's been so long since I've written! I'm bad.

At the end of last week, I couldn't rally a fourth vote to keep Drew. It sucks! I think Drew would be really helpful for my game and it's gotten around that I wasn't backing down about the vote. It's frustrating. I think I'm a pretty big target in the game so far. But this is two weeks now that I've fought for someone who I feel really close to, and both times, I didn't come out on top. It sucks for sure. I'm definitely not playing one of the quieter games on the house. But Drew and Casey were very important players to me so I stand by my decision.

During last week, Rachelle told me that she was considering backdooring Sofia. I ultimately decided to sit on this information because I didn't get a chance to talk to Sofia until she won HOH, and I didn't want to look desperate past that point.

At the end of last week, I also made an alliance! First one of the game. It's kinda lame though. No offense to the people in it, we're just not having much of an impact. Right now, it's Mike, Matt, Christine and myself. Mike really should've fought to stay HOH this round but I can tell he wasn't too into it. I do think our alliance is at risk because of this, too.

Sofia very obviously put up two pawns and it's terrifying. Ryan won veto, took the lesser pawn of the pawns down, like Sofia wanted, and is letting Sofia have free reign on the house right now. I definitely think I am a consideration to be nominated. I like Sofia, though, and although I would take the opportunity to evict her if it came, I gave her my word that I wouldn't nominate her if I won HOH and I am going to keep my word. I have no idea if she believes me, though. I imagine that the decision is somewhere between myself, Christine, and Mike.

I also still have my deal with Ryan. I haven't been able to talk to him much because he's not on AIM a ton but I do think we have a good relationship. I asked Ryan straight up, and he said I have reason to be worried based on things that he heard at the beginning of the game. But at the beginning of this week, Sofia told me she had bigger fish to fry. I have no idea if she's changed her mind or what's going to happen, but I'm terrified. Counting the votes to stay, it seems like it'll be close. There seems like there will be quite a few people in the middle, and I'm just not sure how it'll fall. I'm hoping I just don't go up. I asked Ryan to put in a word for me and he said he would. Ugh, I'm so nervous.