So Heaven just pressed the Button like 3 minutes after me... isn't she the HOH this week? Is she even allowed to press the Button? Anyways, I think the fact that she did it 3 minutes after me kind of shows that she really does want me to be nominated this week. I feel like she pressed the button only to ensure that I don't get any kind of safety or reward this week, which I'm sure the Button will be just that.
Wow! So I've been feeling pretty defeated lately. I have been feeling like my days are kind of numbered and tonight Heaven informed me that I'm going to be a nominee, so I was feeling a little more in the dumps...
That was until Ash came online and was telling me about a plan he had. He wants to pitch a backdoor plan to Hayley. He said he'd volunteer to throw the BOTB competition if Hayley puts him up with Brian with the ultimate goal of getting rid of Heaven this week. I know Hayley is kind of close to Heaven, though... so that might be a bit of an obstacle. But I see light where there was none before.
Fingers crossed I can somehow manage to kill this BOTB competition!
So Ash also told Ika about the plan to try and backdoor Heaven... and guess who goes and tells Heaven about that plan? I mean, it wasn't me... so obviously Ika is back to her old tricks of spreading shit all over the house. She's such a mess and she's only make herself more of a target. Does she really think Heaven is going to protect her?
So now Heaven wants to remain HOH, so I wouldn't be surprised if I'm put up on the block with someone who clearly isn't the best at challenges like Brian or Ika. So thanks Ika! You really screwed the pooch on this one...
...back to being down in the dumps I go! Happy 4th of July!
Last night I was feeling so defeated. I had a bit of a meltdown and was freaking out to Shilpa, Boog and Heather! I honestly did NOT expect Brian to post a decent time like he did. It's such a shame, because I really want to be here to play. It's just incredibly frustrating because I don't have the connections a lot of the other people in this game do. There are some people who have hosted tons of the people in the game, others who have played together multiple times. My only connection is Boog and the people from my season.
I know, I know... I'm such a complainer this season. But it's incredibly frustrating to be playing with these sorts of people and feeling like you really have no chance.
So my goal today is to be extra social to the people in my house and campaign my little heart out. I'm going to go all out for this POV and hopefully kill it. It's intimidating to be playing against Heaven, especially not knowing what she wants. I could see her wanting me evicted since I made a move against her... but it's really not in her best interest. Her biggest threats in the game are the people who already have tons of connections and I'm not one of those people.
Time to put on my happy face and go mingle with these bitches...
I was talking to Heaven earlier today before veto results were posted and asked what her intentions were this round. She made it perfectly clear that I was her target this week. She even told me her plan was to take Ika off the block and put up someone in her place to send me packing. I tried reasoning with her, telling her that I'm really not her best option to go after... that there are people in the game with so many more connections and after this week I wasn't going to be going after her (which, to an extent is true... I won't be winning HOH and sending her ass packing but if she's on that block you're damn right I'll send her home). She made a valid point that because I already had shown where my head was at and had tried to target her that she had no choice but to target me. I can respect that to a degree. She has to know that she's a target for everyone in the game, though. She's a competition beast.
She also made it abundantly clear that people were throwing me under the bus... apparently saying that I had a lot of connections in the game? That couldn't be further from the truth. I think because S9 has a lot of people representing this season that means we'll be targeted for just that reason. That's pretty laughable though because we are such a shotty group. There's no way we would all work together. I don't trust Rachelle for shit. I like Shilpa but she has other connections in the game. Ash has proven his loyalty to me this season, but as of last season I wasn't a huge fan. Drew is awesome, so there's that... but I feel like even he would turn on me. So how is that for a group of disjointed people?
Anyways, I won veto so I don't have to worry about that!! Apparently my time has raised some suspicions though. I can't help that I was prepared. I needed this win or my ass was grass. If that makes me a target next week then so be it... at least I survive the week! Feeling a little disheartened, though... because even when I do well and have a good week, it seems like I can't win. I won't be a complainer... because I won regardless and I'm safe and I'm feeling good!
Rachelle's trying to pull a fast one over on me this week. She's pretending that there wasn't a plan to backdoor Drew all along, but between Neda and Shilpa I've figured it out.
Look at all this subtle manipulation from ROACHelle...
Rachelle Diamond (22:05:44): CRUSTINE! Rachelle Diamond (22:05:47): grats on the veto win! Rachelle Diamond (22:05:50): YOU SLAYED MAMA Christine Brecht (22:05:55): ROACHELLE! Christine Brecht (22:06:00): Thanks baby! <3 Rachelle Diamond (22:06:12): umm no Rachelle Diamond (22:06:15): thats not how this works Rachelle Diamond (22:06:19): see i call you crustine Rachelle Diamond (22:06:23): and you call me rachelle Rachelle Diamond (22:06:26): or roro Christine Brecht (22:06:31): lmao! Rachelle Diamond (22:08:04): Apparently people are suspecting shenanigans lol Christine Brecht (22:08:39): Suspecting shenanigans? Rachelle Diamond (22:09:00): Yeah ppl think ash gave you the link beforehand Rachelle Diamond (22:09:01): lmao Christine Brecht (22:09:02): Like with my time? Christine Brecht (22:09:06): Oooh, god... Christine Brecht (22:09:13): Yeah, I've already been warned about that. Rachelle Diamond (22:09:18): yeah cause everyone's like CRUSTINE BEAT HEAVEN BY A MINUTE WTF SHE MUST HAVE CHEATED Christine Brecht (22:09:19): I was prepared though, girl. Christine Brecht (22:09:44): lmao! Well, I sure am getting good at creating a target on my back <3 Rachelle Diamond (22:11:35): haha Rachelle Diamond (22:11:41): Who is Heaven gonna nomiante? Christine Brecht (22:12:33): She already did girl Christine Brecht (22:12:38): Keith is up. Rachelle Diamond (22:12:40): oh Rachelle Diamond (22:12:40): lmao Rachelle Diamond (22:12:43): im slow as fuck Christine Brecht (22:13:05): I thought you were just sticking in character since Roro didn't know what was going on ever either Rachelle Diamond (22:13:17): lmao Rachelle Diamond (22:13:22): I get home from work Christine Brecht (22:13:22): Do you know who you'll name as a replacement nominee? Rachelle Diamond (22:13:30): and see that sofia already posted her veto ceremony Rachelle Diamond (22:13:38): like thanks for talking to me about it Rachelle Diamond (22:13:38): lmao Christine Brecht (22:13:46): Hahaha! OMG! Christine Brecht (22:13:54): Well that's great Rachelle Diamond (22:13:56): im discussing with the people in my house now Rachelle Diamond (22:14:01): trying to find the best solution Rachelle Diamond (22:14:07): well everyone cept for Drew Rachelle Diamond (22:14:13): that dude is so frickin busy this game Christine Brecht (22:15:10): I knowwww... he lives a pretty busy life that guy.
Neda told me that she's sad about what is going to happen this week. I think she was venting to me because Rachelle/Sofia told her that she's annoying and wouldn't be a good pawn and that's why Sofia needed to take her off the block. So Neda basically told me that there was a plan in place all along, but I just didn't know who they planned on backdooring at this point. I kind of assumed it would've been Shilpa.
Shilpa was the one who told me that Drew was going up on the block. Shilpa basically said that she had to promise to vote Drew out in order to stay off the block... but that she wanted to campaign hard to keep him afterwards.
And now here's my issue... Boog is definitely my closest ally, but I think because we're from different seasons we'll want different things to happen. I could 100% see her voting to keep Candice. I kind of said that she could do that, because I know she's pretty close with her. But at the same time, I'm just not sure how much I trust Candice. I certainly trust Drew a lot more.