Brian's Banter

[Brian]

*sigh* Dammit, Matt.

[Brian]

So, I've been wanting to think of something to say on this week ever since the Auction ended and HOH was announced, but there hasn't been much to say that might not lead to me saying something I'd rather not. I kind of really just want this round to be over with. I've come to think from it that maybe it's best for me if Heather goes. I don't like the idea from a personal take at all since we shouldn't be in this position, but Nick will probably always be the girls' target, and always target the 4 of them (plus, he's at least looking like he's keeping an eye out for the bigger threats). I feel like a bit of a dick since maybe Heather won't understand, but this is purely what I think is the best game move for me, and I'm being honest when I say that's the big thing it's based off of.

It does feel like an asshole move, but any move I make is a something that could be seem that way, so I'm kind of screwed and stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm still thinking a bit on my vote, but I'm definitely getting it sorted and in before the night's done.

[Brian]

Man, I can't help but feel really bad about Heather going. Sure part of it's because we really got along, I wanted to work with her more, and she really really wanted to be here, but that's not the main reason. The main reason I feel bad is because I know it's 100% my fault that Heather's gone. She's going to be really mad and hurt when she finds out that I'm the one who suggested to Zach and Matt that we evict her, which means I'm behind the votes even being there for her to go in the first place. I don't enjoy sending a friend out of this game, because like I've said I'm the type that wants people to like me, but it's a game and I have to do what's best for me.

Heather was pretty pissed when I told her I was evicting and said a bunch of stuff, including going on to say that she felt then that I didn't have a backbone. I get that she was mad though. Hopefully she at least understands and respects me enough for telling her in the first place when other people didn't. After the whole "no spine" comment, I told her that being willing to tell her what I was doing and facing the consequences of my actions already meant I had more of a backbone than the others who avoided it. I don't know, I'm just going to have to move forward and have enough faith in Heather to trust that she'll understand in time.

[Brian]

Hm...a "post once in an hour timeframe (4-4:59 timeframe, then 5-5:59 timeframe, etc) and hope you get the candy for that hour with whoever gets the most winning HOH" challenge? Huh, I could actually stumble ass backwards into this, lol.

[Kat]

Do you want Skye's candy?

[Brian]

Girl, that candy's too sour for me.

[Skye Wheatley]

Ewuh. Can we not?

[Brian]

Can we not but still say we did? Lol.

[Brian]

Man, come on Matt. The last thing I said before I went to bed last night was "I'll post at the 8am one between 8:40 and 8:45", so when does he go and post? About 1 minute before I told him I was going to...

[Brian]

Actually, you know what? It's whatever. As long as one of the girls doesn't win, I don't care. I'm only really going to be upset if we miss out because of this stuff and one of the girls wins HOH because of these screw-ups people are doing.

[pyramidhead]

Have you thrown competitions this summer?

[Brian]

Even without that mess up I did early on, I kindsa sortsa didn't plan to go as hard as possible in the Endurance Comp during that #Comeback week that Heather won with like 20 hours. I figured someone would do some insane time so no way should I go all out for it knowing I'd never win.

[pyramidhead]

Is that a yes or no? I'm confused by your pointless rambling.

[Brian]

That's a "learn to read you lazy ass". So yes.

[pyramidhead]

Why are you talking to yourself like that? I asked a yes or no question and you couldn't even answer it right. Maybe you're the one that needs to learn how to read, dumb ass.