Week 8 - Diary Room

[heather]

7/27/2015

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Nice try Mike!

[heather]

7/28/2015

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_{Trolls trolling troll-fully.}

[heather]

7/30/2015

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Is this real?  I genuinely enjoy Boog, but I've been hearing lately that she is pissed at me.  It could be that Zach is just trying to drive a wedge between us... but IDK.   Apparently she ran to Sofia for a deal after Ryan stayed Week 6.  Is Boog backtracking now because she thinks I'm gonna win HOH?

[heather]

7/30/2015

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_{A Song of... Fire and Ice?}

Obviously with Heaven coming back I need to tread carefully but I've secretly been hoping for something like this.



Right now I can't even think straight.  I'll give a much more detailed update later, when I'm not so exhausted.  I still can't believe that I did it!  I won HOH!  All of these trips moving my stuff back and forth, up and down the stairs, it's really wearing me out... but I promise, I'm not complaining. 



Stay tuned!

[Kat]

[heather]

7/30/2015




Sofia made this.  Amazing.  Extras better get out the way!

[heather]

7/30/2015

People always say that endurance comps are about who wants is the most, and I really wanted this one.  Coming off of last round, which was awful, I really felt like I needed to get some control back in my hands this week.

Now that the #Comeback has finally happened (which let's be honest we all knew was on the way,) it's like a huge weight has been lifted.  From here on out, whoever leaves will either be gone for good or sequestered in the jury.

My target for this week is gonna be Mike, 100%.  Whether or not he was the Blackout HOH is irrelevant because either way, he's coming for me.  He also has his gross bro alliance going on and that makes me want to vomit so... Bro-Down Showdown, y'all can get out of town!

I could go on a witch hunt trying to find out for certain who nominated me and who the third vote to evict me was, but really, what's the point?  I'll never know for sure and trying to get to the bottom of things will only make me more paranoid.  This morning, before Sofia and I talked, I might have considered a grander plan for a backdoor with my HOH, but in this game I'm fairly flexible and I sort of like the idea of her and I working together, at least for a while.

Sofia filled me in about Boog and the other girls not being too happy with me.  I already had an idea that Boog in particular was upset, just based on what Zach has been saying, but Sofia confirmed it.  It explains why Boog has been acting super OTT sweet to me since yesterday.  Now I'm back in power and she's scared.  Maybe she should be.  

I guess she told Sofia that I was super shady and that I was the one who was gung-ho after 'The Trio.'  She tried to make herself out to be the victim too... as if Brian was ever her real target and that nominating #Bryan had anything had anything to do with him putting her up Week 1.  

This is Big Brother and I'm not sorry that I told ' The Coven' (Boog, Candice and Neda) what they wanted to hear.  They stressed fervently and repeatedly to me about how Heaven, Ryan and Sofia needed to go so what was I supposed to say?  'Oh no Boog I don't want your target to go, I want both of mine to go because I'm actually really tight with Ryan, oops!'

I especially don't owe 'Crocodile Tears Candice' anything after all of the shit she pulled during the first few days, and Neda... do I really need to say anything about freaking Neda?



I do understand more I guess why Boog in particular is angry with me.  I mean I get it, I saved Ryan and I got both of my replacement nominees out during the #Boother HOH Week.  I also lied to her and told her that I wasn't campaigning for Ryan to stay.  That was pretty selfish of me and I'm definitely no angel... but Boog isn't either, so she can kindly ditch the cheap costume halo and sit the fuck down.  Mostly I think that I'm annoyed by how two-faced she's being with me lately.  If she thinks that I was disingenuous with our friendship or something, then she's simply dead wrong, and trying to get back at me by being super fake isn't gonna prove anything.

We've all been somewhat dishonest in this house (it's the nature of the game afterall,) but I actually had Boog's back more than most, at least before she threw me under the bus.  Trying to trash talk me to Sofia, who knows that she and Candice have been gunning for her since the beginning... not the smartest move.



Right now, my plan is to put Matt and Mike on the block and hopefully Mike will go home.  If the Veto is used though, then Boog and I are gonna have to have a very serious conversation.

[heather]

7/31/2015

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[heather]

House Assessment

I'm a little bit annoyed with Boog at this very moment!  It's not just that she's mad at me, which is honestly fine because rationally I can understand that, it's more that she's refusing to talk to me about it.  I don't know what Boog is trying to accomplish by being super saccharine to my face and then throwing me under the bus behind my back.  Whatever it is though, it's not working.  If Boog thinks that she's somehow gonna get one over on me, then she's definitely in for a big surprise.  'Fire and Ice' can both make it burn.



Brian has kinda slipped under the radar lately.  I sorta feel like I'm just going through the motions with him at this point.  He speaks to me a lot still but nothing of substance ever really comes up.  Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to a prerecording on the telephone.

_{*Press '1' for a vague statement regarding the game and the obvious...
*Press '2' for a generic comment about Brian's day...
*Press '3' for a bad joke that may or may not be completely incomprehensible upon first glance...
*For all other requests, or if you are currently banging your head against a wall in anguish/frustration, please hang up, and, in cases of severe head trauma, don't forget to dial '9-1-1'...}

I'm not sure if Candice is as upset with me as Boog, but if she is then I couldn't really care less TBH.  Sometimes I feel like Candice has a hard time seeing the game from other people's perspectives.  I don't even feel like I'm holding a grudge here either.  Everything that happened in the first week aside, I truly would work with Candice in an authentic capacity if I thought that it would benefit me, but I just don't think that it would.  If that changes, then I'm always open to exploring my options (just look at Sofia and me,) but so far... I've got nothing.



Heaven being the one to reenter the game is kinda bittersweet.  On one hand I'm confident that she's got my back for a while, and she can win comps that will keep my allies and me safe, but at the same time, with her out of the way, my individual relationships with Ryan and Sofia were golden.  I feel like I lost a bit of headway in that regard when she was revived.  I'm just gonna need to hustle a little bit more and be on my toes.



I feel like Keith and I are sort of drifting in regards to where our individual agendas fall in the house, and that really concerns me.  I don't think that he'd ever put me up or target me, but he's playing his own game and he definitely isn't dumb.  Initially, when I won HOH, he really wanted me to put up Sofia, but I really want Mike out.  That's probably selfish of me, but this is my HOH week...

One thing that Keith said to me too just really rubbed me the wrong way, because I felt like he was trying to very blatantly manipulate me.  He suggested that 'The Trio' would target me sooner rather than later as a 'comp threat' to them.  Keith doesn't know the first thing about who 'The Trio' would target.  How would he?  Keith really only wants one of them out this week because of the threat that he thinks they pose as a unit (whatever) and to him personally.

When Keith asked me to pick him to play in this week's Veto... I didn't and it's because I didn't trust him not to use it on Mike if he won.  If there's one thing that I hate, it's being strong-armed.  I may be a hypocrite because I did sorta strong-arm Keith the round that Hayley left, but when people try and force me to do something in here, it makes me that much more determined not to do it.



Matt and I are just never going to be compatible players I guess.  We weren't in Season 8 and we aren't now.  I feel like he's just not a trustworthy person in this game.  With me he's always just been sloppy with his lies.  I'm not so naive that I don't expect people to lie to me in Big Brother, but with Matt it's just always so poorly executed that I almost feel like my intelligence is being insulted.  He's never given me a reason to believe that his word means shit in this house.



My angel baby!  I love him so much.  In Season 8 Nicole was my rock; here it's Memphis.  I'm a little worried for the two of us once it gets down to the wire, just because our collective comp skills aren't the greatest, but I will never turn my back on him!  He's my BFFL.



I feel genuinely sorry for Mike if he really believes that me nominating him has anything to do with me not liking him as a person.  Has he annoyed me in this game?  Yes, but my agenda for this week is strictly strategic.  I can be sarcastic and snarky sometimes, but I truly don't think that Mike is a bad person.  

It was actually kinda sad after noms... because he was just so down on himself, telling me how unlikable he thinks that he is and how he couldn't believe that he was actually my target since he isn't good in comps and has so many other people gunning for him.  Maybe that was him trying to pull on my heartstrings a little bit, but I still believe that some of what he was saying was coming from a real place and that's a shame.



Neda cracks me up most of the time but she is such a loose cannon.  I think that she just gets bored and decides to troll people, which is amusing, but in small doses though.  I'm so apprehensive with her when it comes to game talk because it's impossible to predict what she'll do with information.  



My Nick.  It's so refreshing to me that we're really talking game these days and that it actually feels genuine.  I'd like to believe that he's got his own plan for the home stretch but I'm still cautious because he and Zach have been together since the very beginning.  I love all of the guys in our 'Gatorade' alliance but even within our four, there's gonna be a pecking order.  If we make it as far as we can go, and Nick and Zach have a legitimate F2... I'm gonna be the target.  I'm loyal to them, but I'm not gonna be led blindly to the slaughter like so many blondes before me.



I feel like out of the two 'showmances' this season, Ryza and I are definitely like the preppy, All-American couple (lol at Ryan being Australian and Heather being Canadian though,) and Mike and Sofia are... whatever the opposite of that is.

(DISCLAIMER: Clearly we are not actually a couple since IRL Ryan is gay and I'm a woman, but in the Rise & Fall Universe, our characters are the true OTP so deal with it.)



I'm actually really in love with the idea of Sofia and I working together.  Obviously we've had our differences but how epic is 'Fire and Ice'?  Some people (Curtis, Memphis and Zach, and probably Heaven too) know that we made a deal, but I think that the longer we can keep the extent of our arrangement under wraps, the better.  We could really do some damage together down the line and I'm all about having a contingency plan should 'Gatorade' not work out.



I think that these last few rounds have really bonded the two of us.  Being nominated during the Blackout Week really sucked, but together, Zach and I got through it and for me, it made me realize that I actually can trust him way more than most of these people.  Out of 'Gatorade,' he and I have definitely played more visible games so far than either of Memphis or Nick, and that has made us both bigger targets (as evidenced by last round.)  Ultimately, he's probably my biggest competition to win this game, but I can't dwell on that right now, because we're gonna need one another for the long haul.

(I can't believe I just said that. Isn't that mentality usually why he wins so many of these games?  Oh well, at the end of the day I'll rather take my chances.  He's a great player but so am I and when it comes down to it, if I don't end up taking home the title this season, then I'll be happy if it's Zach that does.)

[heather]

8/1/2015



This house breeds so much paranoia.  When Ryan won the Power of Veto, I was so happy that I could have jumped into his arms and squealed with glee.  I knew that Ryza would keep my noms the same, and that the votes were locked up to evict Mike... at least I thought they were.

Even Sofia, who's vote I wasn't necessarily counting on, was reassuring me that Mike was toast.  She's been siphoning information my way since before I was even crowned HOH, and now that she can't be backdoored, I don't know why she'd keep going out of her way to make me think that we're good if we're not...

Keith took me aside though and started spinning a completely different story about what's actually been going on.  Apparently 'someone' (Candice) told him that they heard from 'someone else' (Boog) that Sofia has been smearing my name to anyone who will listen, and that she's also been going around saying that Memphis, Nick, Zach and me are in an alliance.

Hmm... okay.  What Keith is hearing does sort of check out with what I thought I knew, to a degree anyway, since Sofia has come to me and admitted to most of this.  The thing that concerns me most though is that alliance rumor...

Sofia is being adamant with Zach and me that Neda was really the one who brought up that rumor to her... I want to believe Sofia but ugh.


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