Me getting MVP was weird, but slightly rewarding I guess? I didn't feel very nervous with Nick winning HoH, although I guess I didn't feel nervous with anyone winning HoH.
What's good about winning MVP is that I can still throw comps but I can still be put in a position of power to make a decision. I want people knowing that I'm MVP this week and that I wasn't scared to put up Heaven, and that I wasn't scared to let my status be known. At a certain point it's better to show that you're going to fight than continue to slither on.
But the best part is putting up Heaven is actually a very safe move on my part. I am riding a steady wave between the Coven and Heaven/Zack/Nick (and Nick is doing the same, even though I think I'm doing it better), so going after the trio is really the move I need to make. Heaven and Zack don't seem to care that I'm playing the middle, because they don't see me as someone who is a legitimate threat to them. The trio don't seem to mind that I would come after them, and my deal with Sofia is simply that I would keep her- and I would honor that if need be. My largest hope would that be Sofia wins veto, Ryan goes up, and that Heaven is targeted for eviction. My worry is that Heather/Zack/etc. will try to save Heaven if she's the only trio person up so we'd need to counteract that.
Nick definitely wants to bridge better communication between me and him so I'm gonna send him a PM today.
So I did my best to try to make a larger bridge with Curtis this week, and I think it didn't help. I probably got too loose-lipped with him, and I'm going up. Even as a pawn.
It puts things in perspective for me, and I don't really feel like I'm going to stay. My gut suspicion is that someone is going to flip it for Boog. I really want to talk to Candice to see if I can convince her to keep me, because otherwise it's just going to tie between Boog/Heaven for the least amount of votes.
Funny when I need Brian and Matt, and I dislike Brian the most.