like bees to the honey! /// candice confesses

[candice]

me at this game right now

[candice]

dropped a strategically placed honesty bomb on heather

candice stewart (11:59:01 AM): i just feel very out of the loop and confused right now
Heather Decksheimer (11:59:36 AM): I think everyone does to a degree it's a very weird vibe going on rn
candice stewart (12:02:19 PM): i'm just so exhausted by this game and i want to lay down and stop because i feel like i don't know anything ever
candice stewart (12:03:01 PM): barely anyone tells me what they're doing or how they're really feeling
candice stewart (12:03:16 PM): they tell me what they think is best for me to hear
candice stewart (12:04:06 PM): not realizing that the entire reason why i have the perspective i have on the game is because that's what people keep reinforcing when they tell me what they think i want to hear
candice stewart (12:05:06 PM): i don't want to hear the candice-version of what's happening i want to hear what people actually feel so that i can readjust my perspective accordingly
candice stewart (12:07:18 PM): candice is voting ryan so let's validate how candice is voting by making her feel like that's the right thing to do. no candice is voting ryan so let's explain why i'm not voting ryan so she doesn't feel like a fucking patsy when eviction happens and ryan stays even though everyone's been telling her since the beginning of the game that ryan needs to be evicted at the first opportunity

[candice]

no wonder i'm close with boog and neda they're the only people who are FUCKING UPFRONT WITH ME.

[candice]

candice stewart (12:27:48 PM): it's like i'm trying to put together a puzzle but i only have like three pieces and the rest are paper cut-outs that other people gave me because they don't want to give me the real pieces
Zach Rance (12:28:27 PM): Lmao I mean as to why ppl arent evicting the trio?
candice stewart (12:28:47 PM): that's part of it
candice stewart (12:29:04 PM): because people have been telling me all game, they're together they need to go asap
Zach Rance (12:29:08 PM): Simple for me. I know I'm targeted after them by some ppl

nick tells zach everything confirmed

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candice stewart (2:35:18 PM): people only really talk week by week with me and the only longterm game anyone really talks with me is "the trio has to go"
candice stewart (2:35:50 PM): so like of course i thought ryan was supposed to leave, that's what everyone keeps telling me is a priority
candice stewart (2:36:36 PM): but now it's like, are people just telling me that bc they think it's what i want to hear and don't think i'd be down for anything else or what
Zach Rance (2:36:37 PM): That's how I see most of our convos
Zach Rance (2:37:30 PM): I mean unless they lied to u and did something diff
Zach Rance (2:37:54 PM): Idk if it's really that bad
Zach Rance (2:38:12 PM): U needa express that to ppl instead of bottling it.
candice stewart (2:38:43 PM): that's kinda what i'm trying to do by having this convo with you lmao
Zach Rance (2:38:52 PM): Lmao o mean
Zach Rance (2:38:56 PM): With others ya
candice stewart (2:39:08 PM): well yes i know
Zach Rance (2:39:15 PM): Any1 u feel isn't receptive 2 u
candice stewart (2:39:38 PM): but idk i thought we were going to be working together and on the same page and stuff and idk what happened to that
candice stewart (2:40:13 PM): probably me being wrapped up in shilpa bullshit
Zach Rance (2:42:31 PM): Ya it took a u turn or wrong exit somewhere along the line
candice stewart (2:52:43 PM): well hopefully we can mend that and get back on the ~same road~ to continue your analogy or w/e lmao
candice stewart (2:52:58 PM): i feel like i'm nowhere right now and i'd much rather be somewhere

let's see if i can fix my game with this sloppy ass conversation i'm having. god i am so bad at this shit

[candice]

i'm basically trying to increase my options without actually changing what i want to do so if i win HoH my game is going to crumble all over again but goddamnit i don't care i just want to make shit happen okay

[candice]

ahahahahahaha

boog just threw heather under the bus to sofia and sofia told boog some pretty juicy stuff. like how heather nick and zach have been suggesting me as someone she should target

SPOILER: Click to show

Boog Roe (6:41:40 PM): im tempted to throw heather under the bus to sofia but i havent made up my mind yet
candice stewart (6:42:00 PM): that would be so great tbh
Boog Roe (6:42:24 PM): i sent a message to sofia but i dont think shes around
candice stewart (6:42:30 PM): damn
Boog Roe (6:44:23 PM): right
Boog Roe (6:44:31 PM): ugh
Boog Roe (6:44:35 PM): i still will i think
Boog Roe (6:44:55 PM): i just wanna do it before HOH so it doesnt look like such a last ditch effort
candice stewart (6:45:28 PM): yeah that makes sense lmao
Boog Roe (6:54:42 PM): do i throw zach under too or is that not wise
Boog Roe (6:54:50 PM): i feel like its not wise
candice stewart (6:55:09 PM): hmmm i'd say it's not wise
Boog Roe (6:55:16 PM): ya ill just stick with heather
Boog Roe (7:17:34 PM): oo this shit talk went well i think
candice stewart (7:17:49 PM): oh?
Boog Roe (7:18:35 PM): sofia was saying how heather nick zach and maybe memphis are shady af and they have been trying to pit sofia & company against you and I
candice stewart (7:18:43 PM): omg
Boog Roe (7:18:54 PM): like she brought up your name as someone they told her to come after
candice stewart (7:19:08 PM): fascinating

[candice]

that post i made yesterday about how much i can trust ppl and shit is already so outdated. move nick down with heather/zach/memphis, sofia up with can maybe trust, probably keith up to trusted allies tbh

[candice]

candice stewart (11:56:05 PM): mazeball was pretty easy
hartattackbb (11:56:10 PM): what?
hartattackbb (11:56:11 PM): lol
hartattackbb (11:56:25 PM): nicknamed that shit "impossiball"

hartattackbb (11:59:14 PM): avalanche was super janky. you tap the arrow at all, and the little bastard takes off running like a fat guy who got offered free ribs

people's warrior brian hart

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Zach Rance (8:32:15 PM): OMFG WOW the hoh was def
Zach Rance (8:32:20 PM): not sofia then
Zach Rance (8:32:24 PM): sry for asusming it was u
Zach Rance (8:32:27 PM): i dont think it was now
candice stewart (8:32:38 PM): lmao ty
candice stewart (8:32:54 PM): but congrats on ur safety
Zach Rance (8:32:58 PM): tytyty
Zach Rance (8:34:27 PM): ur not
Zach Rance (8:34:30 PM): my target at all now
Zach Rance (8:34:33 PM): i know it wasnt u
Zach Rance (8:34:39 PM): i hope we can fix us cuz
Zach Rance (8:34:41 PM): everything i told u
Zach Rance (8:34:48 PM): while nommed yesterday
Zach Rance (8:34:49 PM): was true

YA GIRL CANDICE, BACK IN THE GAME!

[candice]

the best way to tell a lie is to convince yourself that it's the truth and i just genuinely forgot that i'm not voting

also i recorded a video confessional yesterday and i forgot to upload it, hold tight pls

[candice]

hartattackbb (8:47:49 PM): so uh, holy shit
candice stewart (8:50:09 PM): loooool right
candice stewart (8:50:18 PM): nbd just casually backdooring heaven
hartattackbb (8:53:00 PM): lmao I know
hartattackbb (8:53:21 PM): it's like, they can't even try to claim credit for it either
candice stewart (8:55:33 PM): no blood
candice stewart (8:55:35 PM): at all
candice stewart (8:55:47 PM): nominating three of the biggest names in the game in one round
candice stewart (8:55:50 PM): with no blood
hartattackbb (8:58:41 PM): that's like..."super gentle first time" levels of clean and finesse there lmao
hartattackbb (9:09:39 PM): er sorry that was weird
candice stewart (9:09:59 PM): wow brian you fucking freak. that's gross
candice stewart (9:10:06 PM): (jk i loved it ;-) )
hartattackbb (9:10:25 PM): I was gonna say that's what she said, BUT... :-P

[candice]

sorry for the wait youtube on my phone was a mess

[candice]

hartattackbb (10:49:58 PM): so give a hand for hoh
candice stewart (10:50:24 PM): *applauds vigorously*
hartattackbb (10:50:55 PM): *slow clap*
candice stewart (10:51:30 PM): *outclaps aggressively*
hartattackbb (10:51:54 PM): *overexaggerates claps to make them super loud*
candice stewart (10:52:41 PM): *glares and claps harder*
hartattackbb (10:53:02 PM): aw...my hands hurt now...
candice stewart (10:53:17 PM): gOOD

where was this brian in rnf7 omg

[candice]

genuinely enjoy talking to him so much more than in 7