like bees to the honey! /// candice confesses

[candice]

rly tired but can't sleep because i'm "doing the challenge" tonight

the endurance challenge i am not eligible for yet have to pretend i'm doing it so people don't catch on

[candice]

heaven wins comeback

[candice]

Heather Decksheimer (5:53:36 PM): maybe when u win hoh
Heather Decksheimer (5:53:43 PM): when will that be btw jkjk

oh u know. last round. when i nominated u

[candice]

candice stewart (4:21:52 PM): she said something like zach, nick, heather, and "maybe memphis" have been working together to pit me/boog and the trio against each other
Keith Henderson (4:22:13 PM): Can confirm
candice stewart (4:22:19 PM): i never got to talk to sofia directly but boog pretty much explained the whole convo to me
Keith Henderson (4:22:19 PM): I am supposed to be in that group
Keith Henderson (4:22:22 PM): But I am 5th
candice stewart (4:22:27 PM): oooooooh okay
Keith Henderson (4:22:49 PM): They tell me what to do they don't ask me about it

well at least now i know for sure

[candice]

i just feel really defeated. i'm obviously gone next week if zach & co get their way and i'm so exhausted and i want to give up because it feels so goddamn pointless but i have to keep trying.

[candice]

either nick is rly good at misting or i've just been very misguided i don't really know anymore. i can't afford to assume he's lying to me so i'm just gonna trust him and hope he doesn't fuck me over

[candice]

i should probably stop forgetting to post confessionals when i record them



since making this i've started feeling a lot more confident about my game??? wow i made this so many days ago AWK

[candice]

ok so

boog told me she was MVP literally right away over snapchat and she said i'm the only person she told. knowing sofia would probably nominate nick, i tried convincing her to nominate heaven. i think that we should REALLY REALLY REALLY be focusing on heaven/ryan right now!!!!! like super bad. because what the fuck is the point of taking out zach & the zachettes if we still have to somehow try to beat heaven, ryan, and sofia in challenges? we need to take all the opportunities we can to evict them because eventually we will run out of them. MVP is a great way to do that. butttt she ended up nominating zach, which feels like a waste because there's no way he's going to leave lol. evicting memphis is a waste. especially for me!!! because i could have picked him up later probably. but whatever. because...

this week has significantly improved my relationships with nick and zach!!! i think if nick was still trying to be shifty with me, he won't be anymore, especially after i'm saving his ass from eviction when heather isn't. he HAS to see where he stands if he's with them. i personally think he was playing the middle hardcore. i think he still is. and i'm going to let him, because if nick is playing the middle he's an excellent middleman for me and zach. zach and i have been a lot more """upfront""" with each other. i definitely told some little white lies when we had our heart to heart last night - i lied about which of my allies is closer with sofia, for example, because i'm nervous for boog's position - but overall i think zach and i have made our peace and can work together for now. i pointed out that neither of our allies are going to let us anywhere near a final 2 because let's be fucking honest lol they aren't, and he obviously agreed because he's not an idiot. i suggested we revive our threesome with nick. THIS IS REALLY GOOD BECAUSE I DON'T THINK ANYONE EXPECTS IT!!!!! when i talked it over with nick he agreed that it's the best thing for our games to reunite. honestly, i have no idea who i want to sit with at the end. i can't really afford to be that picky because i don't have a clear path there right now. i just want to fucking GET THERE, i don't care who i'm sitting with as long as my ass is spell it outed firmly in a chair. like. FUCK. this game is so hard lmfao. but i think i've saved myself for a few rounds, especially with vote to save most likely in the mix for next week.

[candice]

[candice]

hartattackbb (6:33:40 PM): you know, this is silly, but I figure since it's downtime, it's fine. But my sister posting cottage pictures got me thinking. With like Australia, us seeing a canoe is like "wow", but that could be the same as someone from Australia being all "wow!" to a squirrel or Canada Goose, which is kind of amusing to think on, lol

[Shir]

a canoe? canada is like world champions in canoeing. what's he talking about?
DO U YOU KNOW CANDICE?

[candice]

Neda K (11:27:06 PM): Are you talking to anyone else
Neda K (11:27:09 PM): Besides me right now
candice stewart (11:27:10 PM): no
candice stewart (11:27:21 PM): not from the game anyway
Neda K (11:27:24 PM): Oh
Neda K (11:27:32 PM): Imagine
Neda K (11:27:37 PM): You were
candice stewart (11:27:56 PM): imagine i was what
Neda K (11:28:08 PM): You were
Neda K (11:28:13 PM): Talking from the game
candice stewart (11:28:27 PM): ??

[candice]

i let myself trust nick again and he lied to my face over skype.

so now i'm back to feeling hopeless af

[Shir]

What did he lie about?

[candice]

i'm planning on making a video when i get home but before he made initial noms we talked on skype and he assured me boog wasn't and wouldn't be the target. sofia wins veto and suddenly boog is the target