#ASHATTACK

[ash]

This round just got a bit more juicy. My plan has evolved. Mike bit on what I was selling him, and he sung like a canary....that is if he was telling the truth. He pretty much told me he's cool with me volunteering and wants me on the block to throw the BoB, because that's the reputation I have. I was like fuck yeah I'm down at least I'll have a shot a veto. So I asked who he wanted to target and he said Heaven, because she's irl friends with Ryan, close with Sofia and they're all winning anything. I was just like yeah I totally agree this is the best chance to get them out.

But fuck that. Why am I wasting my time taking these people out, risking my ass for Mike of all people. It was that moment that I realized why don't I just try to use this info that I have to work with these power players. Like for real if they keep winning which they will, why not team up with them. I'll actually start having a say in what's going on, I won't have to worry about being too big of a target because they have a massive target on their backs already. So I took everything I learned and I told it all to Heaven. So she's aware of my whole plan. Sure its a risk, but whatever. I need to win allies, if I actually want a shot at this game I can't just rely on Christine. So my plan this round is to get Mike to nominate me, convince him I'm throwing the BoB, but then bust my ass to win it. Doing so I'll hopefully gain some trust with Sofia/Heaven/Ryan for being on their side and helping them out, and hopefully get some actually footing in this game, because I can't play lone ranger forever there's 19 fucking people.

[ash]

Dat moment when volunteering to be nominated gets you safety for the week #botbeast #playingtowin

Sometimes risks pay off. People need to step up.

[ash]

I'm legitimately so defeated and seriously contemplating quitting the game. I don't even have a chance. Why am I such a target? I'm not even good at challenges, yet I'm called out by both people in power. I was even trying to work with Heaven and even that doesn't pay off. It's been an uphill battle this whole game and all my allies keep getting fucked over. I almost just want to quit just to not give these people the satisfaction of pussying out for another round of HoH. Like good for you, you took out Ash and Christine who were just aligned with each other and can't win shit. 

Hosts can I get some clarification on the duo twist. Does each person for eviction get one vote or two? If they get one, there's a chance at least one of Christine and I can be safe, but if each person gets two votes, then we're just fucked. Can I get an asnwer to this ASAP, it will seriously affect my decision with the veto.

[Shir]

Every person will cast 2 votes to evict.

[ash]

Well guys it's time for my swan song. Rachelle insisted we do that challenge at midnight last night and it was exhausting. She definitely threw it, no way Rachelle was that bad at that, I feel as though I even found more than her and I was half asleep. I'm pretty much just done, I don't think campaigning will do anything for me. I knew coming into this game it would be tough, I'm just not a part of these core communities, I don't play Shadow Survivor I played Sausage Island years ago, but I was still excited to play with a few people and get to meet some others. Well the people I wanted to play with are out and the one person I want to play with is constantly targeted because we're not part of the giant friend group. It's just insanely frustrating, especially when the one side keeps winning and won't take each other out. I guess it could be worst, I could be playing with friends and get burned like Shilpa did. People say I don't talk to people, but conversation goes both ways. At the start I had small talk, I chatted, I did all that, people don't talk to me either, people have chosen they don't want to play with me. That's cool, I'll take some of the blame but it pisses me off when people like Rachelle make it seem like it's my fault entirely for not breaking into pre-formed relationships that I just didn't have.

Anyways if I lose veto it's a lost cause so I'll just say my goodbyes now. Kat, Shir, Colby, GM, Estelle and Skye you guys are a top notch staff. This series both times I have played has been amazingly run, the challenges have been great, the last challenge with the word search was amazing. The rounds I did play this season I got to have a lot of fun despite never having any legs. loved creating some havoc trying to throw that BoB, I have loved working with Christine this season. Despite all the shit luck I've dealt with in this series, and in both seasons I've had a fair bit, it has an awesome experience, tons of fun and I have really enjoyed it. 

Ash out.

[Kat]

Thanks Ash!
If the results don't go in your favour, you should def try even if you think it's a lost cause because never say never Keep your head up!

[ash]

Campaigning to get myself to stay just won't work, but I can campaign to get Christine or I to stay by pushing people to vote to evict Rachelle. Hopefully this last ditch play accomplishes something, I legitimately think its a waste for a lot of people just to evict both Christine and I. We're seemingly very separated from everyone still in the game, so I just don't see how it benefits people to take out both of us, but I definitely see why it benefits them to take out one of us.

So if instead of campaigning for just for myself, I campaign for them to save either me or Christine, but just use that second vote for their own selfish motives and take out someone who is a massive threat. I think that is my best at this point and being true to myself. I am a loyal player, I have been loyal to Christine and I want one of us to survive this week, so I want to campaign for her as much as I want to campaign for myself. I'm also not going to lick ass to try and get myself to stay. I've posted a very rational arguement and what I think is the best move for everyone in this game. Plus at the very least, Rachelle's squirming because of this will be lots of fun to watch. Gotta get my kicks somewhere, am I right haha. 

Ash won't go down easy, gotta go down swingin.