Heaven's Hideaway

[Heaven Afrika]

I am p excited to get started in the game but also a lil nervous. Coming into the season with a big target on my back isn't gonna be hard to shake off. /: I am the 1st unanimous winner in the series and a competish beast as some peeps would say. I am happy with the way I played in my season but it doesn't set me up for long term potench this season. I know that eyes are gonna be on me and if someone can get me out they are gonna do it! It will be about making the right allies to help get far. I need to talk to peeps and figure out who are gonna be the ones to take me far. I wanna align with the most social players and the biggest competitors! Even if these peeps are dangerous for in the end I'm gonna need them to start!

Everyone knew we were gonna be put in houses aha! That wasnt a surprise to us but I like the house twist b/c I had it in my season and it lets you focus on more peeps in your house and establishing bonds in em! Sofia ended up winning HoH for our house and I was sooooo happy! Sofia is someone I have gotten to know and work p well with! I think she is going to have my back and I am gonna have hers! I want to make an alliance of me and her but I wanna bring in my good friend Ryza and make a power 3some! (:

My house has Ash, Drew, Keith, Luisa, Matt, Ryan and Sofia. Ash doesn't talk to anyone I hear X: or if he does he doesn't talk long! I have this experience with Ash so I'm happy it's not only me! Drew is a nice enough guy but I heard from Sofia that when they talked about nommies he brought me up and my ability in competishes. If he's after me or putting my name out there I gotta get him out as soon as I can! Matt is a p nice guy and he keeps a chat going as long as you are online! He is a chatty guy but it's doing him good!

Keith ahah he is playin the same ol way he did in our season. He isn't taking things supe serious but that's okay b/c that's him! I don't not liiiike Keith but I don't wanna work with him b/c he's untrustworthy and I know he's got a lot of allies! Luisa is never ever ever around unless she comes on p late at night. Peeps keep saying she isn't a social player and she shouldn't be here. I didn't wanna judge her but I can kinda see why everyone thinks she shouldn't be in the game now!

Ryan is my good good friend and I love him to the sun and back! I invited him to the series and he applied for season 8! We go ways back when we played games years ago on LJ and he's been one of my best friends ever since! I think everyone knows this ahah but I'm not hiding the fact b/c I don't wanna lie since it's already going around! I will be devo if we ever end up on the block together but I'm not trying to think about it and want to stay positive and believe we'll be okey doke!

Keith and Luisa up was easy peasy. Keith didn't do HoH and Luisa never spoke to Sof! I haven't spoke to Lu either! Keith has been campaigning since being up. He keeps saying things like I could be in troubs in the game but he's seen threats make it far before.. ahah what's he trying to say to me! He asked me if I had his vote but I didn't wanna commit b/c I know Sof wants him gone. I wanted to talk to her to see what was goin on before I started making promises that I maybe couldn't keep! Ryan won PoV and I was proud! (: Yayay way to be Ryza! I knew he wasn't gonna use the PoV! Problemo is he wants Lu to go and Matt wants Lu to go b/c of their season. It looks Luisa is gonna go. I wanted Keith to go b/c I think he is gonna be more trouble but it's not looking like it's gonna happen..

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Oh I wanna talk about some other things too! Mike was in our house at the beginning but when Sofia came he ran for the hills like he was on fire! X: He made a good decision b/c Sof was gonna nominate him no matter what he said to her! He left b/c of the gold button twist which I am a fan of! That is a good twist and I can see myself using it if I end up in a house I could be in danger in.

I am guessing we are gonna switch houses every round kinda like my season and if I end up with peeps I don't talk a lot to or I know will wanna get rid of me then I am gonna be watching that button like a hawk! Mike going put Sof in a lil pickle and everybody got scared b/c they knew Mike was gonna be her target! I'm p sure it was gonna be Keith and Mike going up but I think Mike could have still stayed ahah b/c he might be a lil more social than Keith.

I have been trying to talk to peeps in other houses knowing that houses might switch. I have been keeping up with Zachster, Heath, Memphy, Roro and Ika! They are probs my favos of the peeps outside my house. I have spoken to lots of other peeps but some of em haven't talked to me in a couple days b/c they are focused on their own houses. I've been gettin info on house #3 and it's p dramatic compared to ours! Shilpa is causing troubs which isn't a surprise to me! She is one of the peeps I'd want to go soon b/c I played with her before and she works a p stellar social game and is a big threat. She's trying to keep her friend Casey in but I think he's gonna go! X:

Talking to other players is gonna help me in the long run b/c I'm getting info about peeps who might be targeting me! I know Candice keeps bringing me up and Ryan's name up and saying we need to go p soon. I spoke to Candice a lil bit before but it's good to know she's not gonna be someone I can rely on! I gotta get out the ones that are saying they want me and my allies gone! Espesh me and Ryza! I don't like not trying with them or getting to know them but if they are already making remarks like that what can I do! I gotta protect myself!

Rachelle and Zach are my favos outside my house but I like Memphy and Ika is such a sweetie pie! She was tellin me how much she loved me ahah it was rando but she seems like a positive person and surrounding yourself with positive only encourages it in yourself too! I gotta balance it out b/c I got someone like Sof.. just kidding! O: I love Sof but she can be a lil handful sometimes!

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That competish was no bueno! /: I did a lil good to be at the end of zults buuuut I'm not good with refreshing and posting a lot b/c my comp freezes and gives me troubs! I am in shock by the winners b/c they did sooo good! Drew's score was outta this world ahah! I dunno how he did that be he musta had a neat trick or a good timer to be able to post that much! I wish I knew how he did it so well! The winners were Drew, Christine and Zach! If I could pick the house I'd wanna be in it'd be with the Zachster buuut that's not where I ended up. ): I ended up with Christine as my HoH!

Christine is one of the peeps I spoke to even before we were in the same house and she was my HoH. I was thinking I'd have a lil sway with her as my HoH b/c we even talked during the day before we got zults too! After she won we continued our chit chat and I was trying to make sure I was in a good spot with her. I wanted to get some face time before peeps started messaging her. I told Christine that I don't have a lot of options in the game and if she kept me safe I would def pay her the same kindness back! I would do it too! I don't have a lot of strong allies in the game and I am wanting more!

I thought my pitch was p good but I dunno what she's gonna do. She didn't promise me safety and she didn't agree to the deal aha. She told me she appreciated it.. and that was kinda it. /: Eeeeeep! I might be going up! I can feel it at the bottom of my gut but I'm not gonna let it get to me! Gotta hold strong! I did try with her and she knows I'm good at comps and she'd be someone I'd keep safe in the future if she kept me safe this week!

Maybe Christine won't wanna pass up the opportunity for that deal and she'll be loyal to it? It's not looking that way but stranger things have happened! If she does nom me.. I don't like to play a game of revenge but in the name of the game she will be someone I nominate if I win b/c she would have shown she doesn't want me here!

In my house I like Matty! We didn't talk a lot in our old house but he's fun to talk to sometimes. He talks a lot of game. He asks a lottttt of questions though ahah. He's a lil information gatherer! Nicole I finally met and she was a sweetie. Keith I already know and I wanted him to go last time. X: He's a nice guy but he's kinda cuckoo. Boog is a fun gal and we also talked a lot of yesterday before zults! Heather I dunno. She's nice to me but she's a person I know is gonna be a big threat later! I gotta keep my eye on that one! Ash is never ever around unless he needs to talk himself up!

I am talking to Rachelle and Sofia and they were hinting at getting a group together. Rachelle and Sofia said something about the Cool Kids Club and would wanna include Ryan too! That's what I wanted ahah and I want it to happen! We just gotta get through this week! Rachelle and Sof said they're gonna be safe in their house! (: It's only me and Ryan that could be in troubs! We gotta think like protons and stay positive!

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I'm not gonna go anywhere! No way no how! I kinda had a feeling the nomination was coming but I'm ready to fight my lil heart out for that PoV and stay in the game! There are too many promising things in my future to go home now! I have my alliance with Ryza, Sof and Roro and I don't wanna miss out on playing with em. The competish I hope is something I am good at. I can do well at a number of things.. as long as it's not posting aha! My comp doesn't like those! If it's anything else I might have a good shot! I like Nicole and think she's a sweetie but I need to get myself off this block and into some safety or it's all over for me!

Christine told me a few min before she was gonna put me up. I respect her telling me before she posted em but I don't respect her being a lil hypocritical in her speech! /: Last night I brought up how competish threat status would prob have peeps wanna target me or tell her to put me up and she told me she wasn't going to pay attention to past season reputations and only focus on what was being made here! I talked to the gal sooooo much yesterday and talked to her a bit before she won too but she still put me up! In her speech she talks about how I'm a threat and a past winner but it goes against what she was telling me in private last night!

If I can't win PoV I think I might go home b/c while I've chit chatted everyone.. I don't have super duper close connections with any of em. No ill feelings toward Christine but I'm staying and I'm coming after her if I win! I gotta! The peeps who I hear are after me need to fall like dominos so I can stay alive! I can't sweep anything I hear under the rug and out of view cause if I have a shot I need to take it before it's too late.

I'm gonna talk to the peeps in my house in the event I lose PoV but I think a lot of em would love to see me fall and that only makes me wanna keep my head held high and show em that I'm a tough cookie to beat!

[Shir]

How does it feel to know you have won HOH?!

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Yayayayayay Shir! (: It is the best feeling in the world aha. I heard that Ryan was saying things to some peeps (hopefully just Hayley) that I was feeling a lil low. This is true but I try not to spread anything like that to anyone or in my DR b/c that's not the person I wanna be. I wanna be confident and I have to keep that looking ahead or I'm not gonna make it.

It's only b/c I talk to peeps and feel good with em and think we're bonding and having a good chit chat and then I get nominated or hear from others that they want me gone or they want to target me the first chance they get. It hurts to hear b/c it reminds me more and more of my season and how i had to fight every week to combat an alliance and stay alive.. /: It was p hard for me and I gotta hope I can overcome it again.

Hayley is reminding me why I loved her more than you could imagine! She is my lil peach and she has been giving me pep talks and has been the wind beneath my wings again aha. We had the same kinda ship in our season.. motivating each other and trying to get through the hard times! I wanna be in a house with her so we can get stronger together!

I am a lil upset with Ryan for telling her I was upset and not feeling excited about the game? I am excited about the game! I am just feeling a lil low and it's hard seeing the light at the end of the tunnel but I will or I will fight as hard as I can to see it. I think Ryan did it b/c he knew her and I are close and prob wanted her to talk to me. I told him she was the person I was closest to in our season and I wanted to play with her again!

Zachster and me are talking about the twisto and I think it's gonna be an exile thingy or it's gonna be a house pick with the last person getting evicted? I remember he did that in his Micronesia game I was in and I think it could make sense if we had 2 houses of 10! I dunno! Peeps are scared of whether or not to press the button and I am encouraging peeps to press it! It's gotta have some good in it! If the time was extended and we don't have houses yet there has gotta be something sparkly coming someone's way for who presses it!

I hope Mike doesn't press it b/c he is someone that is against me and my allies. It's kinda sad b/c while I would never ever ever trust him I still would have talked to him and given him a chance. He doesn't wanna talk to me and goes to peeps and tells them that if it's a battle of the block twist that Sofia needs to be dethroned so me and Ryan can't play next week and we can go then. /:

I'm happy that I am being told things like this but it makes me feel bad b/c it confirms almost everyone is against me ahaha. I know it but it sucks to hear over and over again yunno? I am gonna try and talk to peeps still and let everyone have a chance to talk to me! I dunno what's happening with houses and I want to be able to give everyone a fair shot to talk to me if I get to nominate!

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Sofia is fighting Mike, Keith and Brian in the house chat and I wish she would stopppp! /: She isn't gonna do herself good and I'm trying to look out for her!

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These silly nillies! Ash has a big ol plan to try and get me backdoored this week! It could happen b/c if Hayley noms him then he's gonna throw so I get dethroned. I dunno what I did to this guy aha. He doesn't gimme the time of day and has already written me off! In the first week he never spoke to me after I msged him! He has some sort of lil vendetta against me. I can't do anything right with some of these peeps!

I had a nice lil chat with Ika and really liked her up til this point! Zach kept trying to get me to put her up and I didn't wanna do it at first b/c she and I got along! I wanna keep all the allies I can get.. strong or weak it doesn't matter to me! Then I got told that Ika is in on the plan to want to backdoor me ahaha! I can't make any new allies gosh! /:

I kinda want to nominate Ash so he tries in the BoTB and doesn't throw but I can't nom him and Christine together b/c they'll deffo win and I already told Christine I was gonna nom her. Also there is no guarantee that Hayls will put up Christine! I decided to send a PM to Hayley congratulating her and hoping her trip is going well and she had safe travels! I told her what I planned to do with my noms (Christine/Ika) and that I know about Ash and his plan to try and get her to backdoor me! I don't thiiiiink Hayls would do it but if she knows I know then maybe it will make her not want to even consider it!

I told her it'd make p good sense for her to nom Brian since he nominated her kinda like how Christine nominated me but that maybe she could put up a bigger player with Brian that way Ash can't throw? I told her it's b/c season 9 is together and if she doesn't nominate Ash then I could put up Ash and take down Ika if I win PoV so final nommies for the week are Ash and Christine! (: I dunno what Hayls is gonna do and I'll respect whatever she decides but I hope she hears me out!

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Welppp! You win some you lose some! Christine did super duper good and I'm really impressed aha. I'm trying to think how I could've cut my time down b/c I dunno what I could've done! She's a p good competitor too and tonight she's proven she can be just as big a threat when she wants to be! (: It's no bueno for my game tho b/c she was my target. My plan was for me or my allies to win PoV and remove Ika! I wanted to stick up Keithers so Christine would defo go home. I can't do that now.. so I gotta do my backup plan which isn't exciting.. but it's getting Keith outta here!

Ash is messaging me and I dunno what to make of it. /: He never ever talks to me and him talking to me now and trying to strong arm me into not putting Keith up only makes me wanna put up Keith more. X: He's really aggro! He's telling me I should be smart and not waste my week on Keith and go for a threat. Aha mind you I never told anyone what I was doing so this was him assuming what I was doing. I guess he kinda sees the division the same way I do? Why would I take out someone he wants out then?

I don't wanna help this guy and I'm not gonna nom Zachster, Memphy, Hayls or Heath when they talk to me and gimme the time of day! This guy is an example of someone who never ever does and his pal Keith doesn't either! I am being v respectful with Ash and told him I appreciate his input but I don't agree with him. I don't consider trying to take out Keith a waste of a week at all. It's not a big move ahaha but it's not a waste! Even if Keith never had the power of HoH he would still hold the power to evict and he is someone I know wouldn't hear me out or gimme a chance to campaign.

I am doing what my gut says and my gut says that Keith needs to go up! I know some other peeps in my house are threats for their own reasons but I'm not gonna take out the peeps that have helped me with info or talk to me.. for a guy that never even spoke to me when I won HoH and is only talking to me now to save an ally! I appresh his loyalty looking out for a friend of his but he's no  ally of mine and I gotta play my own game and do what helps me!

I feel bad b/c I had a nice lil chit chat with Ika today and we cleared the air! I told her she wasn't my target ever and she kept telling me that she never said she wanted me backdoored. I kinda believe her and maybe things got lost in a game of he said she said. I told her that I wanted to try and save her if I could. I also talked to Christine before zults and she said the same kinda thing Ash did.. that I shouldn't go after her b/c it's a waste. I don't like when peeps use that word! It's not a waste to me! /: Why wouldn't I take a shot at the person I know tried to come after me.. why would I take a shot in the dark at someone else when I have no proof they are!

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The round was p chaotic and a lot went on aha! Something happened that I was a lil excited about at first and it was potench working with Ash and Christine. Ash came to me and said he wanted to work with me, Ry and Sof. I didn't tell the other peeps in my alliance about this b/c they don't gotta know everything but having Ash on my side would have been something great! Ash is good at the competishes and if he won I wouldn't be as nerv if he did anymore! I was liking what Ash was saying but Ryan wasn't having it and thought he was lying to save his booty! When I talked to Sof so she said the same thing! /:

Ash did say he wanted to not throw the BoTB before it happened and when the zults came up it looked like he super duper tried! He kept his word that he was gonna go for it! But I kinda felt that he did all this in an attempt to have a lil bargaining chip to keep Christine safe. I didn't think it'd be a biggie b/c the alliance was already talking about maybe putting Shilpa up.. so why not use this as an advantage to get Ash and Christine on our side even if it would only be a for a lil while. Christine and me talked to and she kept telling me that she didn't wanna go head to head every round and wanted to target other peeps.

PoV happened and Ryza won which meant we could take Neda down! Neda threw the competish for Sof to allow us to use the backdoor! I felt soooo bad for Hayls! I didn't say anything to her about the plan /: but I did tell her that she had my vote earlier! Last night everyone discussed that Shilpa was goin up and that's okey doke with me! I don't have anything bad to say about Shilpa as a human being! She's a very nice gal and she always tried with me but it didn't change that she and me don't have chemistry! We had some trust issues and it kinda made a wedge between us. That and everything she was saying and doing led me and my allies to believe she was against us!

I get on today to Sofia and Zach goin cuckoo bananas in the alliance chat about Christine. Christine lied to Sofia last night saying she would help her out by evicting Shilpa. Sofia wanted Christine to prove her loyalty by doing this b/c you could promise someone the world but be full of poo! Well.. turns out Christine wasn't being genuine after all. /: It's kinda sad b/c I was willing to work with her and put differences behind us. I meant when I said it was an eye for an eye and that's all but it looks like it's gonna be a battle til she or I are gone! I wonder if Ash is being honest with me then? If Christine wasn't honest was Ash not being honest either in wanting to work with me?

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I did not wanna nominate Rash for eviction eughhh! But we all talked it out as an alliance that Rash going up was probs the better idea. I dunno what is going on with Ash.. he makes me think he wants to work with me but he doesn't do a lot to show it! Plus this sitch with Christine.. I dunno. Ash told me that's his #1 and she has been saying the same things as him and then goes back on her word the 1st chance she had! It's no bueno b/c if Ash is telling the truth.. I dunno b/c of all his original actions. I always wanna give peeps the benefit of the doubt but this game makes it really risky. Ash could have done what Christine wanted and put me and Zachster up and that woulda been bad!

I didn't want Rash up b/c of Roro! /: I messaged Roro on the side and tried to comfort her. I told her CKC is everything to me b/c it is! We have the votes to make sure Ash leaves! We only need 6 and we would have Nick, Ryan, Sofia, Heather, Brian, Memphis and Neda to evict Ash and get him outta here! Zachster confirmed the votes! Ryan also said Heather would evict Ash! I asked her if she was sure she was okay with going up and she said she was. I wouldn't do it if she really didn't wanna go up! I think the good thing about this is it blurs the lines between her and me, Ryan and Sofia! Rachelle and I agreed she can play up being against us so she can keep getting info and any inside deets from the other side of the house!

Zachster kinda asked her to throw the competish in the Sinister Six chit chat and I told her on the side to ignore him and fight hard for PoV! I don't believe in telling someone to throw a competish.. Roro needs to fight hard for it and save herself if she can. I nominated her so I will have the power to name the replacement if she comes down. I am gonna do Caneda b/c Candice like Shilpa has been going around and saying things about getting me out and I would like to see her go just as much as Ash! I don't want the Sinister Six to fracture yet so we will play Zach's lil game for now! I don't wanna be the one to rock the boat b/c I think we have some gas in the tank to run this alliance a few more rounds!

I know Zach is all about protecting the allies he has in this game outside us and I know when the time comes he's gonna try and come after us. I would expect him to and I wouldn't hold it against him! I like Zach a lot but my heart is with the CKC! There is gonna come a time that we need to start taking out his allies so he won't have other options or any troops to rally against me, Sofia, Ryan and Rachelle! I always strive to be a very very loyal person and I will do everything I can for all my allies but I am also playing a game and I gotta do what helps me and my top allies get to the end!

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I was sooooooo nervous this week aha. I couldn't write anything w/o wanting to freak out! /: I did a 100 hail mary's that I was gonna get out of this scary sitch alive. When Boother won HoH I knew there was gonna be some potench problemos. Heather is someone I talk to a lot and really like as a human being. She is a lil peach and I love talking to her but when we talk it's about our puppies or what we're doin for the day or plans for the weekend and other things. She's like a gal pal but she's not a person I talk a lot of game with. It's more than I can say about Boog tho! I don't talk to Boog and it's not b/c I dislike her or anything it's b/c I know she's after me!

It's kinda hard for me to want to talk to peeps I know that want me out. It's not that I don't mind a lil friendly chit chat but it's difficult when playin a game like this and you gotta be on your tippy toes. I feel when you have those sort of talks it comes across a lil insincere and I don't wanna look that way. But I think it's also important to show respect too! When Boother won HoH I went to both of em separately and congratulated em on winning. My interaction with Boog was a lil odd b/c we hardly talk and I didn't wanna make things awkies. I said congrats and said I'd be around if she wanted to chit chat later b/c I knew she was gettin a lot of messages. She never messaged me but that's ok!

I heard from Zachster that Heather was saying we were gonna be safe with Heather. I already knew that! The problemo wasn't Heather.. it was Boog! When it got around that Heather was gonna nom Mifia and Boog was gonna nom Bryan I felt relief! It super sucked that 2 of my top allies were going up but I was still safe at least! However the scary part was that we needed to be picked for PoV or we had a chance to be backdoored if Bryan won. Boog started making it a lil clear that she wanted me and Zachster up if Bryan won PoV and she'd nom us if it happened! Thankfully Heather had an opp approach and said we were safe if Mifia won and they did!

Ry told me about Heather promising him that he was gonna stay and she was gonna help him get the votes. She said that he should have the votes if peeps were being honest. This might be true b/c I heard Keith of all peeps voted to keep Ryan this week and I know Heather's got a lot of pull on him! I have been a lil worried about Ryan and Heather's relationship but she kinda surprised me this week with her loyalty. I'm happy he's got someone lookin out for him like I would. I see Heather a lil differently now! I think she's still a humungo threat later but I think she could be a good ally to have for now! The problemo is that Sofia hates her stinkin guts and she put up Roro as the replacement nom /: and I think she wants Roro gone. Roro can't go! But I can't do a lot for her b/c me trying to help her might cost Ryza!

Nobody's asked me to vote any sorta way so I'm gonna go ahead and vote to evict Brian and Hayls! /: Brian is niiiice but he doesn't do a lot for me! The hardest is gonna be me evicting Hayley! I luv her but we are not on the same side this season! I keep hearin about how if she was HoH last time she was gonna nominate Mifia and try and get out Sofia with Christine and she wanted to put up Bryan and get Ryan out. My allies!

I also kept hearing that Hayley wouldn't mind puttin Zeaven up b/c it'd be a move! Eugh I care for her but I can't let that fog up the view of my game! Zach did nom her and Christine but she was always gonna be safe and was never our target! Ryan and Rachelle are better for me b/c I have an actual alliance with both of em and don't have anything with Brian or Hayley. This week is sad b/c the 4 peeps up for noms are none of the ones I wanted to go! /:

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I am gonna do a lil recap but I'm feelin defeated. /: So so so much happened the last couple days and for it lead up to this makes me hurt. Rachelle left and Sofia was feelin angry b/c Nick and Zach abandoned Sinister Six to appease Heather. I didn't think a lot of it but I see why Sof was upset and I don't blame her. It kinda confirmed me and Roro's chit chat rounds ago when we talked about Zachster having options all over the house and havin other friends. He defo didn't hold Rachelle in a high regard but I didn't wanna have Zach think I was questioning his loyalty so I stayed quiet. Sof was loud enough for both of us aha. Sof went off on him! Both of em were upset with each other and kept coming to me. I didn't like bein in the middle but I used my position to try and make sure things got fixed! After an hour they seemed peachy enough..

I wanted to win HoH and felt confident about this one b/c it's one I like and am good at. I had plans to go to my Gram's house and thought I could use her net to do it.. big mistake! Her net was p slow and it wouldn't make posts in a quick enough time. There was no way I was gonna win 30 min in with only lucky dice done and a puzzle I couldn't post so I forfeited. /: When zults came up all my closest allies kept implying or saying it wasn't them. Peeps couldn't say anyway so you couldn't hold it against anyone for lying!

When the nommies went up.. Heather and Zach were nommed. This was soooo bad! It defo looked like Sof was HoH but I knew it couldn't have been. Before noms Sof and I were talking and she was paranoid that if Zachster won HoH he'd put her up b/c of their fight since it was hidden. She wouldn't say all of what she said to me if she knew she won and knew what she was gonna do. But.. everyone seemed to think it was her!

I told Sof how peeps were starting to think that she was HoH after noms went up and Zachster said it didn't make sense for it to be anyone else and nothin made sense. Sof took this as Zach saying it was her and she went off on him again. Eugh.. from that moment on I tried and tried to fix things between the two of em. I knew deep down Sof was innocent but it was obv that the two of them had shaky trust after their lil fight and were still questioning the other. I don't think they'll ever be the same which is yucko. I got picked for PoV and if I won I was gonna use it to save Zach! I had a lil chit chat with Zach and he asked me to save him if I got picked to play. I said I would if he promised to not go after Sof and if Sof wouldn't go after him! I wanted progress from the both of em to get back to where they were! We had to stick together!

Zach won PoV! I dunno if he saved himself or if someone saved him but I'm happy he got off! The worst came when I became the replacement nommie. I don't wanna put the bad vibes out there but I don't wanna convince myself of something that looks hopeless. I think this might be my last confesh if we are being honest. /: I dunno who HoH is but Sof was p sure it was Candice or Mike b/c she said she had a chit chat with Boog after her and Zach fought and she told Boog how peeps like Zach and Heather tried to pit them against us. Boog coulda told Candice b/c they are aligned but the noms would also make sense for Mike to make. I dunno but I'm not gonna go outta my way tryin to figure it out since it doesn't matter.

To all the hosts and housecallers.. I enjoyed playing this game mucho! (: I loved all the diff personalities I got to play with and enjoyed my time to the fullest. This game had its ups and its downs and at times I felt p low but also had my share of happy times! Sometimes you never know the true value of a moment until it becomes a memory.. and if I go then I leave with all the fun memories I made and the kind people I got to meet and play with. If I stay then I will fight for HoH and do what I can like always! But if I go then I go! Fate will make it's move.

[Shir]

<3

[Heaven Afrika]

I am sooooooo happy to be back! My booty worked the front of the house like a revolving door aha! It was a lil crazy going to to pre-jury and seeing how everyone felt. I kinda knew I wasn't gonna be a favo but the person who kinda surprised me the most was Hayls. Every time I talked to her I always tried to be super duper friendly and get us back to our old lil bond. The last time she and I played I tried to play a charrie and I dunno if she realized that! This time I was only being me and I guess she thought I was cold? /:

I posted my message for everyone and she sent me a PM apologizing for what she said and said it was only b/c she was bitter about being voted out. I like Hayls but it's a game and we never ever made a deal this time and she wasn't someone who was gonna be with my allies! She was against all of em!

Coming back to the hosue the person I was most eggcited for was my gal Sof! She left me the sweetest goodbye! We really have spent almost the whole summer together hehe with the games we've been playin and I think I've made a life long friend in her. She's my favo aside from Ryza of course! Sof told me that Kat requested our log when I came back but she didn't have it b/c she was on her phone so I said I'd post it for ya guys! It's nothing spesh but it's the same kinda interactions we always have!

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Sofia: YESSSSSSS
Sofia: DON'T EVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN!
Sofia: *SQUEEZES UNTIL YOU BURST*
Heaven: yayayay hugs!
Heaven: ahah i hope i don't get evicted again!
Sofia: Now is when you BUST through the doors and say "I'M BACK BITCHES!"
Heaven: noooo
Sofia: "I'M BACK BITCHES!" *struts* "DID YOU MISS ME?"
Heaven: i'm back bishes!
Sofia: You're hopeless :')
Heaven: i wanna say.. i'm back peeps! *waves*
Sofia: LOL I must have forgot you're Rated G and I'm Rated R

This week was kinda calm for me b/c Heather won and as soon as she won she promised me safety! Heather has been very very nice to me! I am always gonna be worried of her lil ship with Ryza but for now I don't have anything to worry about b/c I think we all have the same agenda! None of us are gonna go after the other! Matt and Mike got put up and I was a-okay with those nommies!

I don't talk a lot to Matt only sometimes but it never lasts p long! Mike.. sigh. I wish there was a way to go back to how we used to be but he has it in his head that I treated him badly and I never ever did. /: I stuck up for him when nobody else did in our last game and was the last person to have his back before everything went south! He doesn't see that and his gbye made that p clear. Mike doesn't want me around and he's not gonna let it go..

Ryza winning was bueno! Mike woulda won the competish and him coming off might have been bad b/c I have been worried about Heather goin after Sofia. With nommies staying the same the week seemed like it was gonna be p simple. Mike goes! Buuuuut it's lookin like their is an army comin back at Heather and Zach too and they wanna keep Mike. There is so much goin on that it's hard to keep track. There are rumors of Zach, Nick, Heather and Memphis having a lil thing and I think it started from Sof and blew up into a rumor that's goin around! Zach told me too that he got kidnapped by Mike, Matt and Brian and pulled into a guys alliance. I think he's tellin me b/c they mighta leaked it and he woulda looked bad!

Sofia told me she wants to evict Mike but talked to Mike and said that if she did keep him that he had to promise to keep me safe if he won HOH soon. He said he would but I dunno if I believe him.. he's gonna say what he needs to say to get the votes to stay. Sof said she was lying about her votes to get info from their side so I think she's evicting Mike. The only peeps who I think are gonna keep Mike are Boog, Candice, Neda and maybe Brian or Keith

I don't think it's smart for me to keep Mike b/c he's already evicted me once and I know he doesn't trust me a whole lot. He would get me out if the opportunity came up! /: He also never ever campaigned to me last night.. why couldn't he also campaign to me for my vote instead of just to Sof?